Hi people. I have had clinical depression (moderately severe) for the past 9 years. From my understanding, depression is due to lower levels of serotonin. Lately I noticed that the only thing that makes me feel happy is shopping. I read online that there is a link between depression and compulsive shopping because shopping increases endorphins in the brain. While I'm not a compulsive shopper, that makes sense. In the past, when I was in a relationship, I did not experience depression. My theory is that the "thrill" and "high" of being in a relationship produced enough endorphins to stave away the depression, though of course, the depression was still there when I became single. In fact, now I'm planning to stay single, so my only potential source of happiness is shopping. I find that I experience relief from my depression when I talk about fashion (specifically - what I might like to buy) because it allows me to engage in the topic. However, I don't often get an outlet. I feel like it would improve my mood if I could even talk about fashion for 15 minutes a day. However, this is easier said than done. For example, yesterday night I talked on the phone with my friend for an hour and I couldn't get a word in about fashion (or about anything, really, other than responding to what he was saying) and similarly, I chatted with a friend on Skype today and he just talked about himself and I responded, and before I could say anything about myself, he had to go. It's the same situation every time we talk, and we don't talk regularly, either. I'm so desperate for my "fix" of talking about fashion that I've considered sleeping with someone just to feel better for 15 minutes a day if they agree to talk about fashion with me, but I guess I'm hoping for a miracle.