He didn't reply to a text message from me yesterday morning all day I sat and waited. We have been communicating and trying to work our way back to eachother. I have been praying and seeking God because in a lot of aspects of my life health wise and also financially I am struggling. Trying to change all of these things. Well this morning I sent him bad text messages and he replied saying he wasn't ignoring me but his phone was dead but basically thats why he doesn't want to be with me anymore because I'm a mess and I have a bad attitude and I'm jealous and insecure and just bad stuff. I lost it and I told him he was a liar and he dumped me and he hurt me and he just wants to play around with women and be a jerk and just a bunch of horrible things because I got really upset. Then I tried to call him a bunch of times and he wouldn't answer so I called him a coward over text and begged him to answer I told him I was depressed and wanted to die and needed to talk to him and he STILL wouldn't talk to me. It made me feel like garbage like he can see me hurting and he ignored me. So I called my sister and she talked me through it. I told her I was losing my faith in God she got so mad at me. But she still talked to me on the phone for like 2 hours and now I'm at work. I feel numb.