I don't agree with you @Huntingteckel about hell but I don't feel this is going to affect your salvation. It saddens me that you may feel God is this cruel being who is just out to torture us. The eternal damnation and suffering is our doing not Gods. I had a friend who felt the same way as you, the difference is she is a Witch. She felt that if God allowed all this evil in the world and also tortured souls for eternity then she would rather die not worshipping Him. This is pride that is talking and is of the evil one. I did research last night on the subject of annihilation theory and I still don't agree with it. Our spirit is eternal it is that simple. The spirit has two places they can go and it lives on in one of those places.