I'm not one that tells people his feelings usually, but it feels like I will get nowhere if I don't. I asked God to talk to me, to speak to me. I asked to be able to hear Him. I still couldn't. I constantly ask Him everyday, but I still don't. I find it hard to follow the Bible, to love at all times, and to learn to stay quiet. And to be righteous in speech, and in action. I know that the heart determines the speech. So my heart must still be evil, then. I ask God to change me, to guide me, but it feel like it is not working. I don't see any results. I don't hear the Holy Spirit. I can't follow the Bible like I should be able to. I could not associate myself with other things, even if I wanted to. I cannot have fun anymore. I don't enjoy anything, at least not anything that "normal" kids enjoy. On thing that I find that I enjoy are when I see that the Bible hits a topic on the T, meaning that it describes it perfectly. I know that the Bible is perfect, but I mean passages like 2 Timothy 3:2-5 KJV For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy,  Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good,  Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God;  Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away. That passage describes my generation literally perfectly. But I can't enjoy video games, or holidays, or mostly anything else. It's sad. I "tried" God, but it does not seem to work, at least for me. I know that the Christian God is real, and that He is all that He says He is, because of the accuracy of the Bible and the accounts of multiple people telling the same exact thing when it comes total their experience with God. So I know that I cannot give up, because hell is waiting for me if I do. Just the thought of completely rejecting Jesus scares me. So, to conclude, I have been put in a depression, because it seems like I cannot hear God, that I cannot understand Scripture, and I cannot enjoy my life. Sorry for making a long post. I tried to keep my thoughts between me and God, but I just had to share. Thaks.