Well, I'll be honest here. I personally love and hunger for God very much. I've ever overcome some difficulties in my life before but is not that difficult to be solve. I knew that God wants us to have bad things in our lives so that we can overcome and become more mature in our lives. He loves everyone, and he will never forsake his children. But here in my life I felt that I'm really going through a very difficult live. Because I feel alone in my life always, gone through my secondary life. I could feel that I'm absolutely empty. I mean those feeling of without friends, I don't like the feeling of being alone but I always being alone. I didn't know why did God make such a life for me. I'm really wonder about it. I almost can say that I don't feel the LOVE always, maybe I can say I've never have love in my life(I didn't know about the future). I know God is love, I know he loves me. I know, I know, I know.. But do you know that the love I'm looking for is not about words? I want to taste it. There's a time I'm in a church meeting(youth meeting). The sermon is about Attitude. When the sermon almost finishes, the preacher asked those who want to change their attitude go in front of the stage. So I went, there's a guy who pray for me. He said several words for me, but there is a word that made me really felt love and I cried because of the word. He said to me, "God wants me to be different." These words made me cried and that is the FIRST time I felt LOVE come upon me. But even though I still feel empty right now. Maybe you couldn't feel what am I feeling, but all I could say is I still feel empty. I think I need counsel. If could hope someone can remember me in prayer and pray for me. I'll stay strong in God even though it's hard. Don't worry.