I have to be open and up front about my position with christianity. Yes I have been having a great deal of trouble and problems with my faith for 3 years and I have tried my best to resolve my faith issues but the opposite has happend. All I can do is admit to myself, this is over I have taken this as far as it can go. I am not writting this to ask people to join me or warn them I will be a pain in the neck. I wrote this so people wont be confused if I don't bring god or faith into the forums. I think that someone like myself might bring something diffrent to the table and we can all learn, as I have been doing so.