Hello, So I am in my mid twenties and have been in a relationship for 3 1/2 years. I love this man tremendously and he is my best friend. I had wanted to save myself for marriage but this man ended up being my first everything except kissing. I found out later into our relationship that this man was an atheist. At this point I was already deep in love with him and committed and told myself we would find a way to work through this. We have been through a lot together. We have amazing times, but there was a period of time we were arguing a lot. During this period I tried to breakup with him, telling him the arguments were too much and I was very worried over our difference in religious beliefs. He begged me to stay and I did end up staying, somewhat hesitantly. My boyfriend has not had much of a "real" job in a couple of years..he is trying to start a business but it most often does not even make enough money for him to eat. This makes it so that when we go out quite often I am the one paying for all of our food & etc. This is very frustrating to me. I can understand maybe a year of that- I would support him..but now it's been much longer than that. I have told him of my concerns for the future because of his lack of a job and he agrees that he would also be conerned but just tells me he can't find a good job. Also, I personally do not have a problem with marijuana smoking recreationally here and there although I do not myself..but my boyfriend smokes sometimes up to 3 times a day and it starts to get really in the way of things. When I want to just go out and have a good time with him, he has to smoke first. Lately it seems like most of what he does the majority of the time is play videogames. When I was near him I would cook almost every night while he was laying around, playing videogames. Sometimes he would help me cook, but still this would bother me being that I am a full time student working hard and he has a job where maybe he makes a couple phone calls in a day..and I am catering to him like that. Anyways- I have had doubts/concerns about our relationship for a while particularly because of our difference in religious beliefs. I just keep thinking, I love him so much but is he the one? I'm not totally sure. A couple of months ago I became closer to my friend from high school. I used to tell him everything, and pretty soon I was telling him all about my current relationship. He is a strong christian. He told me I deserve much better and need to leave my boyfriend. This was the first time I had told anyone that I had concerns about my relationship. Adding onto this, I am now having feelings for my friend. I love my boyfriend, but I really feel myself liking my friend and thinking if we could potentially have a relationship some day. He told me that he also likes me, but will be my friend whether I am ever with him or if he comes to my wedding with someone else one day. I'm just so confused right now- this all happened in such a whirlwind of events. It is so refreshing to be able to tell my friend all my thoughts, doubts and secrets and have someone who will listen and care. It is so refreshing to have a friend who will pray with me, because I have felt for a while I don't nessecarily hide my beliefs but I try not to show them that much in front of my boyfriend. I am so confused- more confused than I have ever been in my life. I am scared to death to leave my boyfriend and I am still not totally convinced that is the right thing to do..I don't know. I love him and he was basically my first real relationship. We have built so much together..I just don't know what the right thing is to do. I have been praying for a sign and to know exactly what God's will is so that I know what to do...I have been praying that since day 1 of my relationship with my boyfriend..but I still don't know. I am seeking help and guidance on here because I am at what I feel to be a landmark period of my life....I have no idea what to do. I am afraid and care deeply for my boyfriend. I want to know I am making the right decision. Please help me out- I am currently thinking about this 24/7....so conflicted...I need prayer and guidance. Thank you.