(warning - before you read this - some may consider this too explicit... read at your own risk) Before I became saved, and possibly one of the reasons I became saved I was involved with a horribly selfish, arrogant (possibly narcissistic) guy in my college. He was mean to me, and this was before I had decided to stop having sex, and he and I did engage in sex. But he was pushy and took advantage of me - for instance I agreed to protected intercourse, but he snuck off the condom when I didn't notice. He told people after it happened, with great joy, how he dumped me, and how hurt I was (all before I had a chance to register what had happened). The reason I say this was one of the reasons that led to me being saved is because I was reminded of how much sex messes things up. How if I didn't make that mistake, things would be different. I felt betrayed and embarrassed. But the good thing that happened was A) I saw this guy's true colors, and B) i had a long had look at my own decisions, how even though my peers seem to engage in that activity and everything is fine, when I do it, these horrible things happen. The guy continued to treat me like dirt even though I tried to ignore him. He would go out of his way just to make me feel bad. I knew that I had to cut him out of my life, but I still longed for him to treat me well and be nice to me, just like he was before this fiasco. And that I have completely changed, and have been saved, most of the time, when I think of him, I think that he's not so bad, and I wish him well. But when I see his (evidentally) new girlfiend post photos of the two of them all the time, and see how he showed up at her birthday party even though he had blown off mine... things like that, I begin to feel resentful and upset. Luckily I haven't YET run into them, but I dread the day it happens. I know this means I have not yet fully forgiven what happened, and I know I clearly have not moved on. And I'm sorry to admit I judge this girl - I judge her for her insecure and self-congratulatory facebook stautues, her chunky limbs, and choice of clothing (desperately provocative). I find myself feeling jealous that he clearly must be treating her a lot better than he treated me. How do I heal from this past hurt? What should I pray? I feel that every time I think I am over it, it's just temporary... I don't want to just put a bandaid on it - I want to get over it. I want to know what to think of the two of them. Should I pray for them, for their relationship? pray for her, that he is treating her well? Should I pray that he has changed? How do I do this? A part of me has wanted to contact him via email (not her, I was never really close to her) but A) I don't know what I would say, and B) I fear the ridicule he might give me, and what he might tell people. He asked me for a small favor recently, and then when I saw him, he pretended he didn't see me, and continues to do that when he sees me. It made me angry the first time he did it, but now whenever I see him I feel very uncomfortable and awkward, and sad. I understand that all of these concerns are so silly and petty. But at this point I feel I am paralyzed as to what is the correct course of action. I need some guidance. I am glad that the relationship lead me to getting closer to God, but I guess I feel like there's unfinished business. I keep thinking about doing it and then changing my mind. And I just want to do what I SHOULD do, not what would make things just "less awkward" between us. And I don't want to do it for the wrong reasons - I don't want to do it hoping for an apology from him.... I hope that my question is not "inappropriate" - I appreciate everyone's advice.