So, ever since I was 15, I've always wanted a girlfriend. Mainly, I really wanted companionship. Over the years (I turn 22 this year), my feelings haven't changed, but gotten stronger. I trust God's choice of a woman for me better than my own. God knows her, whoever she is, better than she knows herself, just like he knows me better than I know myself. His choice would be the perfect choice for me. Sure, there would be petty problems here and there, but everyone goes through that. I know this, more and more recently I know this. But I'm wondering, is there more that I could do? I mean, is this an uncontrollable type thing where I randomly meet her at the store the day that I was helping with groceries? Or, is this something that can only happen when I'm pro-active about it? I'm confused yet I'm not. I don't really know how to explain it. God knows I've been lonely for so long, and it feels a lot longer than it's actually been. I really don't want to have to wait until I'm in my 50s before I finally run into the one God recommends for me, of course if that's what God wants, I'll do it. But if I could, I'd much rather be with her before I get much older, like anyone would. And of course I'm not the type that defines it really specific either. I don't care how tall she is, or what color her hair is. Of course like anyone, I'd like her to be attractive to me, but the specifics of the outer beauty are nothing. I'd take a 4 foot 10 blonde with brown eyes just like I would a 6 foot red hair with green eyes. Of course I'd love if she has a sense of humor, and that she's great at keeping a conversation going (my conversation skills aren't too good if the person I'm talking too also have less than average skills). But of course, God knows the perfect girl for me and I know his recommendation wouldn't disappoint. I just don't want to pick the wrong girl as I know the heart can't be trusted completely. I just don't want to miss the chance of meeting God's choice.