I am trying to understand what God is trying to tell me thorough what has happened the past year. I have literally lost nearly all of my friends. I no longer speak to anyone and rarely hear from people. If I reach out, I am either ignored or given a very lackluster response. This has gotten so bad that I have asked God to just take me to heaven because the pain is too much to bear. I also am unable to find a job and cannot understand that as well. I’m wondering if anyone can shed some light as to what may be going on. I have asked God if there is any sin I need to confess and I feel I can’t really think of anything big that I’ve done to anyone. I’ve stilled asked God to forgive me if there is anything I’ve done and can’t think of. The first year of getting married, I wasn’t entirely available (because of graveyard schedules that my husband and I were on a week after getting married-which has since changed), but I did make sure to keep in communication with others. Surely, just because I was not able to meet up within the first few months of marriage, that wouldn’t make several people stop talking to you. Within a few months after marriage, I noticed people start pulling away and even when I have asked if anything was done or said by me that upset them, I have been told nothing and then I never hear from them again. Please shed some light for me on this issues. I am especially hurt because a strong Christian that I met in a ministry last year never talked to me again after the last time we hung out as well. I am a good woman, with good Christian values and am not understanding what is going on.