Ex-Satanist seeks help and redemption!

Discussion in 'Biblical Advices' started by WasLost, Jan 18, 2007.

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  1. WasLost,

    When I heard your story, I remembered Apostle Paul. He is even worse than you. He had followers of Christ killed. He pursued them to punish them.

    Then one day, GOD reached out to him and the rest of course is a new life guided with the Holy Spirit. :)
  2. I remember listening to the testimony of Corrie Ten Boom- an incredible woman of God

    She was in a nazy concentration camp (as was her whole family) teaching bible studies in her particular section of the death camp. When asked by one of the other inmates why she would bother reading the bible when they were left abandoned in that terrible place her response was " there is no pit so dark and deep that God's love is not deeper still". If you haven't read "The Hiding Place" I would encourage you to do do- it is the story of the couragouse Ten Boom family and their efforts to smuggle Jewish people out of the country during the nazi occupation and the price they subsiquently each paid .
  3. I have heard a few times in my stay here so far that my situation is much like Paul's. I'd be interested in some good littertature on Paul and his life...not only in biblical terms, but in other non-fiction books as well. I'm hoping that the similarities I have with Paul will help me to achieve the short-term goals I have set for myself, primarily, self-forgiveness, direction, and to become a vessel of Christ. If anyone has any suggestions regarding further reading on Paul, please either PM me or reply here. Thank you all!:)

    God bless,
  4. Waslost how are you doing brother? I am keeping you in my prayers- let me know whats up!
  5. I just got through reading this entire thread and it is awesome.
    Waslost we love you and thank the Lord that your heart has turned to him. We all question how God can love us with all of the sin that we have committed but I think it is too hard for our human minds to comprehend the amount of love that God has for us. The closest comparison I can think of, is when my son does something wrong I still love him the same and we go on. That is how our Father feels for us. We are going to do the wrong things from time to time but he will still love us. Just as John 3:16 says "that God so loved the world that he gave his only Son." He loves you very much and is very thankful that you have turned your heart to.
    It is so uplifting to me as a Christian to read a thread such as this one. Just know that no matter what has happened in your past, God has wiped your slate clean.
  6. Sorry I've been scarce as of late. I'm still unemployed and looking for work. My wife and I have also started bankruptcy procedures. In addition, I'm working with a law firm to see if I have a legal case against my former employer for constructive discharge, sexual discrimination, and creating a hostile work environment. These cases are very difficult to prove and in all likelyhood I don't have a leg to stand on despite having suffered through the worst management team ever. It's all a very long story and one I don't want to bore everyone with.

    Life is certainly challenging and I'm trying to make the best of it. I'm on a number of medications for depression and anxiety and my relationship with my agnostic wife has been strained. She's had a hard time dealing with my conversion to Christianity. I keep praying and reading the bible. Day by day...

  7. Waslost I am so sorry you are having so much trouble- this must be the reason God has put you on my heart - I am praying for you and hoping things will turn around shortly- God bless you brother- Larry
  8. Waslost. You will get through this. I think when things like this happen it is Satan trying to get back into your life. He is throwing things at you because he wants you to stumble and fall. But just remember God will always carry you. Just as the old Footprints in the Sand story says that when times are hardest you will only see one set of prints because God was carrying you.
    Keep praying and we will be praying for you also.
  9. Hi WasLost!

    I am sorry that only today I noticed your thread, but when I did I was immediately drawn to it. I red your first post in January, then red a little through the answers.

    First let me just say what an incredible story yours is. I love every story of salvation, but I really delight in seeing something so powerful, so inspiring like your dream. Yes, in a way you are like Paul. He was just riding along on the Damascus road, minding his own business, so to speak, when Jesus Himself came up to him and changed his life forever. From that day on Paul became one of the most powerful man of God and he never looked back. One thing I want to point out to you about Paul. I beleive one of the greatest reasons why he was able to become such a great man of God, despite his past sins, was because he took time to understand and recieve Jesus' love and forgivness for him personally. You see, Jesus knew you before the foundation of the earth. That means that even before God formed the earth, Jesus knew you, loved you and most of all aprooved of YOU! You notice I am not saying He aproved of your deeds, but He did aprove of you. He loves you, WasLost! He loves you with a love that is beyond our understanding and that is the reason why He gave you that dream. Please, don't focus on how you are going to overcome your past, don't focus on your past or even your present sins. His LOVE covers ALL of that. Just ask Jesus to show you through the Holy Spirit, just how much He really does love YOU! It's all that matters right now. Yes, God will want to change you and your habbits and your life, but that will come later. Right now just let Him love you, let Him show you just how important YOU are to Him, worts and all. God NEVER cleans His fish before He catches it. Only religion tries to do that and religion is NOT what you want to have. Jesus' love, forgivness, mercy, acceptance and understanding of our short comings is what truly changes us. Not religion, not the law, not rules. There are no "12 steps to recovery" that every body in the world can follow to get "right" with God! God's plan is individual and special for every human being on earth, which means He has already custom-made a good plan specific only for your life. Just let Him show it to you in time. For now just recieve His love and all will be well!

    One more thing... Your wife is God's bussiness. He will draw her to Him in time, just as He did with you. Don't worry about her because, just like you, she is in His good hands, even if she doesn't believe it yet.

    So, hang in there and when it gets really tough write to us here! We will encourage you! Take heart! You've already taken the hardest step!:jesus-sign:

  10. Thanks, all. Right now, my bible and your support seem to be my only anchors to sanity!

  11. Amen adoptivemummy! That's what we should all know.
    And hang in there brother WasLost! The Lord is our protector and our shield. Read Psalms 121 for encouragement :)
  12. Love Psalm 121... And 23

    The Lord truly is your Shephard WasLost, and you shall not want! Remeber that!

  13. Waslost I have a word for you:
    Be strong in the Lord and the power of His might!

    I can do all things thru Christ who strenghtens me!

    The joy of the Lord shall be my strenght!

    Psa 34:3 O magnify the LORD with me, and let us exalt his name together.
    Psa 34:4 I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.
    Psa 34:5 They looked unto him, and were lightened: and their faces were not ashamed.
    Psa 34:6 This poor man cried, and the LORD heard him, and saved him out of all his troubles.
    Psa 34:7 The angel of the LORD encampeth round about them that fear him, and delivereth them.
    Psa 34:8 O taste and see that the LORD is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in him.

    Psa 62:5 My soul, wait thou only upon God; for my expectation is from him.

    Be encouraged brother the Lord God, maker and master of the universe loves you and is on your side-

    In the Name fo Jesus I speak blessing, life, joy,healing, peace and strenght in your life and I thank you Heavenly Father that all the curses in his life are broken , thank you Lord that you already have a plan and that you are bringing Waslost deeper and deeper into Your love and goodness- In Jesus Name Amen
  14. I took a big step this morning. I contacted an old friend of mine who is a pastor and asked him to baptize me again. After services this morning he and I had a private ceremony after a long talk that was filled with much emotion. I can't put into words the experience other than to say that I FINALLY feel forgiven. I wanted to share this with you all who have helped (and continue to help) me through my trials over the past few months. My grattitude is deeper than you know!!

  15. Awesome WasLost! :party:
  16. We love you brother- now that your are able to accept God's forgiveness you will be able to start entering deeper into His presence and joy- you have taken a good step on a most excellent journey and I am delighted for you!
  17. Hi WasLost!

    I am so very happy for you! Feeling forgiven is one of the most freeing feelings in the world!:dance: Welcome to the family!:heart:

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