I've never really liked this world nor have I ever felt like I fit in. When I became a born again Christian I realized even more how fallen this world is and who actually runs in. So, if we're really living in the end times, I'm completely fine with that - the end part. The problem is, I can't wait for it to be over and there is nothing in this earthly life that makes me happy anymore. I have no motivation to make plans. I'm about to graduate and am finishing my thesis. But I'm doing it mechanically and really don't care if I successfully defend it. I used to have big career plans that I can't be bothered about anymore. I used to want to get married, but now the idea of bringing children into this awful world terrifies me. I have no desire to be in any kind of relationship. All I can think about is what the mark of the beast will be and how it will be forced upon us and what the life for Christians will be like. It doesn't make any sense to make any kind of plans for future anymore. Am I going insane? All I do is pray for the unsaved and that's all I can think about. Have I taken it to the unnecessary extreme? Is there anyone else who can relate?