Hi everyone, Thanks for reading. I'm married to my 7th grade sweetheart and now 15 years later our marriage is on it's last lifeline. I recently was saved and dedicated my life to Christ, but she's still on her journey to get there. Here's the problem: About a year ago she told me she's not in love with me anymore. Our intimacy has dropped to 0 with 6-8 months spans between sex. She feels hurt because I cheated on her out of a lack of my own character and integrity. It wasn't sexual, but as she says it, the emotional connection to another woman hurt more. I've done everything I can to make this up to her with no success. She is very civil with me and at times you couldn't even tell anything was wrong, but our relationship has been worn down to a mutual living situation or what I call roommates. She's says she's trying to find herself and learn to love herself, but in the meantime, I've gone from a confident, well rounded man to no confidence, self-esteem and an emotional wreck. I feel I deserve it at times and I know every sin has a consequence. But I'm having a hard time allowing myself to crumble and lose my quest for life during her discovery phase or healing phase. It's been 3 years since the incident and now I feel like she's stopped trying. I have to beg her for kisses, beg to sleep in our bed (currently on the couch for the last 4 years) and most recently moving her brother into our house against my agreement. My question is this: At what point do I just move on? Am I supposed to always put her first even if she's not putting me first? Does God want us to stay in situations that may be hard for the flesh, but needed for the spirit even if it means dying to everything we love?