How come I am not displaying the fruits of the spirit? My dad keeps telling me to smile and lighten up, and it just makes me confused and more depressed. I've prayed and cried to God, why won't he heal me? These past days it feels like I have to do a lot for God, when I've always thought that he does things for us. Doesn't he understand the help I need? Does he have a plan for me, or am I falling away?