Bootcamp I'm going to bootcamp soon. As you all know, I was a blasphemous teenager who rejected the Lord like a stupid kid. I was stupid... but anyways, I'm scared. I'm getting ready to go to bootcamp and combat and I'm a little afraid. I'm a little nervous because after so many people has told me that I'm going to Hell because I mocked the Lord and rejected Him, so I want to know that I'll go to Heaven if I die in the field. It's a terrible thing to think you are beyond the grace of God. I want to speak to the young people to never turn their back on our Heavingly Father, because my life is miserable for doing so. I have nothing but regret for my past. I don't think anyone knows how truely sorry I am. It just hurts to hear brothers and sisters in the Lord tell me I'm not good enough or act like they don't want me around. I've asked Jesus to forgive me and to be my savior. But I feel doubt and fear that I'm too late. So please pray for me. I'm going to combat soon, and I'm scared. If I die, I don't want to think I'm going to go to Hell for my past mistakes I made in my youth. I was a stupid kid that thought I knew it all. I'm engaged with a woman I love and she has a child, so please pray for me. I hope the Lord let's me come home to help her. I'm so scared, I'm a grown man and I cry. I just want God's love and mercy. Though I know I don't deserve it.... I am guilty of blasphemy and apostacy, in my youthful rebellion and stupidity, thinking I knew it all. But I've cried all I can cry. I'm numb from crying, I just want God's forgiveness. God bless and I love you all. Thank you.