Blessings my Dear Sweet Sister,
First question first. As I have said in the past, I do Not write about anything I have Not been through already and learned the hard way. Anything I write is simply truth that set me free and learned from many years of walking all bound up in the lies (Strong Holds) of the enemy. So Yes Mam I have !!
Two things here
1. They are strong holds in your thinking. Strong holds become excuses in your thinking. I did not ever say you are making up excuses but it's in your thinking. The strong holds are neatly mixed in your thinking or another words how You see things.
2. No mam you tried everything that You Know ! You just need more understanding of His Word.
Sure you can. Again this thinking is from strongholds in your mind. They slip in unnoticed and take root.
It is called by Faith. You forgive by faith you love by faith.
Faith is the hope of things not yet seen. So Faith is calling those things as you Believe and Not see, hear or feel.
You talk about suffering for God....
Most believers have all sorts of ideas what this means.
Example......you say you can't walk in love if you are angry.....
So then if you don't walk in love when you are angry you give into your fleshly nature.
So it would seem it would be hard to say no flesh, I am walking in love and forgiveness and you stand down.
Here is the deal Autumn , you have to work hard by making a choice to control your fleshy desires and not give them their way.....Have you done much of this? Lol Because there is Your Suffering. This is the type of suffering that is spoke about in the NT.
All that other junk is set up by the devil and he uses you to do it. You meaning.....you, me, and every one else. Again strong holds that have taken root in your thinking.
And Yes Autumn you too can be free from these. That's all for this reply. To many questions or areas in a post take away from things.
So Autumn,
is this starting to make sense to you?
Blessings
FCJ