I just feel like God is asking to much of me.. I feel like He wants me to choose btwn Him or my mom... And I'm quite angry b/c I really have no body as is that I can relate too...My best friend is in college and busy and has lots of friends so Idk abt her.. And the church I'm serving in..I just don't feel close to my members ( they're around my age we're in our mid 20's... The two youngest are 14 and 15) and although they're sweet and polite I feel they're just close to each other and my pastor takes us all out.. I feel left out . I just don't fit in . I do try and talk to them but Idk you can't force pll who don't want to be your friends to well be or friends and I understand that.. I just feel bad BC I thought we were supposed to be a family and I feel ... Like an outsider its just lonely and disappointing BC of all places I thought church would be the one place that I'd "belong''
But its just a repeat of HS. Solely alone. ( back to my mom)
Any who..this Sunday me and my brother were gonna leave for church ..but my mom wanted us to stay home I didn't know why until my dad came bk from taking my mom to work and told us.. She wanted us to cook an easter dinner ..part1
But its just a repeat of HS. Solely alone. ( back to my mom)
Any who..this Sunday me and my brother were gonna leave for church ..but my mom wanted us to stay home I didn't know why until my dad came bk from taking my mom to work and told us.. She wanted us to cook an easter dinner ..part1