violet

ArielL

Violet, I agree! Just reading this thread is so uplifting!

Butterflywings, what a beautiful thing God did for you when you were in that accident. Yes, I believe that lady could have been an angel. There have been other encounters like this.

Violet, I never thought of that--thank you! Yes God has appeared in different forms. Why couldn't He send an angel in the form of a dog? It was definitely effective--I've never seen a dog retreat as fast as that vicious dog did that day.

I was thinking as I read the story about the pysychic that what you and your daughter have is not just tongues and the precious gift of the Holy Spirit. You have relationship with the Most High God, ability to hear His voice, John 10:27, and ability to know the truth, John 8:32. This psychic had none of those things.

I am so proud of your daughter. You have taught her well.

I know you know this, but let me say this for the benefit of others:

The Bible warns us not to have anything to do with psychics or horoscopes, fortune telling, astrology, calling up the dead, etc. Deut. 18:10-13, Lev. 19:26, Lev. 19:31. Getting involved in this stuff gives Satan a legal hold on us, Psalm 94:20. It opens the door for demonic oppression. Scripture also says it defiles us.

If we become involved in the occult, Satan tries to take every precious gift: our closeness to the Lord, our ability to flow in the anointing, our ability to discern between truth and lies, even the armor we are wearing.

violet

silent

I am not really sure how to best describe this situation I am in. I am not really sure what is going on.

I'll start with the most recent thing that has happened to me. This was a few hours ago, and I was trying to fall asleep in my bed. I was laying on my stomach, and I felt the top edge of my bed begin to depress by my pillow. I felt it AND I hear the springs being pressed down. I also had some 'relaxation' music playing on my computer - a thunderstorm/rain. When this happened my focus shifted to the uproar of thunder and I started becoming very frightened, but I was still riding it out, I didn't try to jolt up or anything, and then my heart started beating really fast, and then REAL slow, and I could hear my heart beat, just like you would in the movies. I know there was a presence, I think an evil presence.

I have been interested in lucid dreams for a while, and basically that means that you are awake while you are sleeping- meaning when you are dreaming, you KNOW you are dreaming and can therefore change what is going on around you or explore your dream, fly, etc. I have had some conflicting thought on the matter of dreaming, and where it and I stand in relation to God. I don't think it's anything evil, and I know that God has used dreams in the past with people. But I am not sure completely what to think about it. I just know I have has some strange dreams... dreams that seem more real than waking life.

The other time, and this was in our old house we moved from a few months ago, I was again asleep in my bed. I was having this dream and I was searching for something in a book, or trying to find text in or on something. I don't know what about, but all of a sudden I heard this name, 'bigfoot' ... and I was instantly starting to become afraid and as I heard that in my dream I started waking up and at that point I knew I was in my bed, and in my room... it was like the dream was centered somewhere down my body, because when I woke out of it I saw this thing which I am pretty certain was a demon and it rushed up and into my chest and it spoke through my vocal chords, saying 'is this what you want?'

I don't know what anyone might say to this, but I know what happened to me, and I know I was not asleep. I KNOW I wasn't. I couldn't control my voice. I think something jumped into my body. I think it is because of the problem I have/had and still have to a degree with lust. and its complicated. i dont want to explain that part further, but i think the nature of the thoughts i have been having, and have had in the past has spawned some demonic presence. i hesitate to say that, because i really dont know what is going on but i dont want it to happen anymore.

When I was a little kid, back in California ... probably 3 years old I remember seeing plain as day a pair of feet, cut off at the ankles walking down the dark hallway going towards my room and my parents bedroom. Not sure where they went, but I was on the couch with my mom and she was watching tv and I was leaning over the back of the couch which was in the living room and I was looking down the hallway. I still remember seeing them, and obviously I was not asleep then ... and I was 3 so how ... or why I saw this .. it just doesnt make sense to me. but i thought maybe there was or is a connection with this bigfoot thing in that dream. I know dreams are semi random.. and you cant really infer anything from them but ... i dunno. i feel like i am really messed up because of all of this.

the only other time i remember seeing something was when i was probably around 8 years old... or somewhere around that age, and again I was in bed... and i woke up and i saw this white light hovering over the foot of my bed... and i am pretty certain i saw a face or something, i am not sure i dont remember it that well. i just know i woke up and i saw something there, it was white and glowing. it was small though, not like some 12 foot angel or something. i THINK this was probably an angel but I really dont have any idea. but i remember it scared me, and i ran to my parents room.

my mom used to see things when she was younger when she lived at her parents home. she said at night time she would be awake and see this pair of green eyes chasing at her or rushing towards her. i think she was also aware of more things than she told us, but she passed away a few years ago so i never really had the chance to talk about spiritual things.

the only other thing which may or may not be supernatural is when i was sitting i think in my moms lap in the living room at night one time when i was little. we had this large living room with a tall ceiling ... probably 15 feet tall? not sure. but i remember seeing things in the air... little floating particles ... probably dust, and there is also this phenomenon that you experience that is just a result of your eyes playing tricks on you .. where you see small flashes of light .. has something to do with the optic nerves... cant remember what specifically causes it but i researched it at one point. anyways .. the point is not seeing floating stuff but this feeling i always used to have when i was little, which is hard to describe ... i know ... wow, i just remembered somewhat.. part of it.. the first thing i remember is this real heavy feeling in my face/chin. i actually think i was sick at the time and had a fever and that was why i was in the living room with my mom.. but i know i have had this feeling at times when i was not sick too. at that time i was accompanied by this i guess fear almost to the point of tears, like a real hysterical feeling. i dont have any mental illness or anything but what i do remember is this ... kind of repeating theme in my head... it was like this girl with a flower.. actually i am not sure if there was a girl or not but i do remember this flower .. and i think pedals falling off... something strange like that and this sound in the background kept getting louder and louder and it was like this silent sound.. i could HEAR it, but i couldn't hear it ... hard to explain... like an inaudible sound .. and this was when i was awake.. it would be something to my memory like a 'peaceful' type scene that starts turning to this manic horror and i know i told my mom about that when it happened. maybe i was being spiritually attacked. i dont know. i cant say what happened, or why. then, the only other time i felt that very heavy feeling and an altered sense of awareness is when i was in court praying and saying God that i was putting my full trust in Him .. and I felt that really heavy feeling and a sense of a higher awareness... but i dont know if that was God's presence or not. just not sure.

The only other thing I remember was .... earlier this year I was in a movie theater with my dad and his gf. At one point in the movie the way the camera was moving around , it looked like it was kinda shaky exactly like a home movie. That best way i can describe it, as what i heard and saw ... it was kinda like deja vu, but different. It stopped looking like a movie, and it started looking like a home video of a part of my life at some point in the past or future, or what i most likely think was the present but off to the side... i dunno, but anyways i felt like i was 'waking up' from this sleep even though i was already awake, like i was waking up from being awake... and i felt like i was starting to merge with the screen and this alternate reality... and i was SURE i was about to, if i didnt stop it. i felt like i was being sucked in. this has happened i think .. 2 times, maybe 3... but cant remember where or when the other times happened. but i have never experience anything like that before, except within the last year or so.

i honestly have no idea what to think about ANYTHING, so i feel pretty lost here and i have no explanations for what has / is happening/happened to me . i dont know if people have similiar experiences or if this is unique and just weird. i dunno. it is weird i know that much. and i think its spiritual, but i dont know how or what kind of why.

...anyways, thats all really.

violet

silent

My life is somewhat ruled by fear, especially in relation to certain thoughts and also spiritual matters. I have even thought in the past that I have died and gone to hell, and the friend i was talking to, and this was while playing a game and talking to them through my xbox, one thing he said was 'i just died, and i dont know how'. heh, we were playing a game of halo, but just the way it came across and the mindset i was in ... it was really surreal. it made me think about how real heaven/hell on earth is/can be, and what levels of spiritual awareness we have. but like i said before.. i still do not know what to think about any of it.

i can see war though.

violet