EndTimeZSouljah

OK so it was like this...

Id say it was about January when all this started happening to me. I believed in God and prayed everyday at the start of that time (not nearly as much as I prayed now but I prayed). I believed Jesus was the saviour and I loved God and I thought of myself as a good person and christian even though I committed sinful acts at times. Anyway, I met my new friends through my cousin. We would hang out in my one new friends apartment and do the things people my age do and everything seemed fine at first. One night we all got really drunk and jokingly I looked at my cousin and said "Man, your the antichrist". Everybody laughed and that was about it that night. Later on in the days after that however, I thought about what I said and it got me kind of interested in witchcraft. I searched Google for spells and stuff like that and I found this one site (dont remember what it was called) and I used some of the spells from it..one of which was called "Conjuration of Lucifer". Nothing really happened at the time when I did it so I just thought oh well and went on doing what I do. But gradually over time, the more we drank and hung out over my friends out, the more I felt like I was changing mentally. I started to see things and thought I was realzing the ways of the world, it was very strange. It was strange in the sense that it seemed like I "knew what was going on in every situation". Its hard to explain, I guess kind of like "mini false prophecies". Evetuially, my mental state seemed to be completely flipped around. I was utterly convinced that I was the Antichrist (even though I wasnt, to me, I didnt THINK I was the antichrist, I KNEW I was the antichist). I had a dream a few months into it of me and my friends standing on a podium in front of alot of people and there was a man in a black suit. He was telling all the people that he was going to help us rule the world. Luckily, I eventually seen a christian video that made me realize I was starting to loose control of my mind and fall into deception by Satan. I feel normal now, but those few months were the worst months of my life.

Wehw! Just felt like i had to get that out.

violet

Boanerges

The darkness knows how to apeal to your soul but it is just like a fish biting on a lure- it lokks good until you find the hook- I am grateful to God that He was faithful to you and that you have turned your life around- your brother Larry

smellycat

it,s easy to be lead astray.good for you you realised this.

Boanerges

Amen SC!

EndTimeZSouljah

Yeah I repented and asked for frogiveness several times. I believed God heard my prayer because my life changed dramatically when I came back to God. I feel closer to him than ever. I was so scared at first that he wouldnt forgive me, I felt like a maniac lol.