Leonidus

Hi there,

I stuck with questions about what I must do and what should be done!

Since recently I’m having a battle with thoughts in my head. One thought says that I must do this and the other voice says to wait.

It Forces me to repent
I have minor problem with overspending money on shopping. So I know that I should not spend money other than I need to. So before I go to the shopping mall buy food I say to my self, OK this is what I’m going to buy today and if it’s cheap then I’m going to buy it. But when I go to the mall, the things that I want is expensive that day. So I look for alternatives. But as a habit I cannot survive on alternatives. Eg. If I want bread for breakfast and if the bread’s price has gone high I look for cereals and I find that cereals are cheap. But I cannot survive on serials. So I go mad in the store. Because I’m so starving. So I say, screw my budget I’m going to buy stuff that I actually like. After spending about twice as much as I planned to spend. I come home with a worried face. Because inside my head says that you don’t listen. You have done stupid things at the store. I say to him I’m startving and I don’t want to get depressed over browsing food. It doesn’t listen to what I say. The only thing it says to me is to repent because I did not listen to my intuition and I have done stupid things so I must repent. What ever this thought was it gives me a really hard time till I repent. Funny things happen when I confesses. When I confess to GOD that I’ve spend money unnessarly the voice in my head says “you confession is not enough do it again because you did not confess properly or GOD didn’t hear what you have said”. When this happens I run in to a depressed state. After this till I get it right the rest of my day is ruined. Typically when I confess I whisper it to GOD. Because I have a really nosey flat mate lives next to my room. But when I whisper that voice says it’s not enough or GOD didn’t hear what I said. SO the only thing I have to do the to say that in a really loud tone and if I do this it going to freakout my flat mates and I will probably get a label for this.




Finding Jobs
I’m a full time student who is looking for a part time job. I know what I must do. To find a job I must put applications. For that I have to go to those stores where I want to work. I did and I found a job but there were heaps of delays to get the job. E.g.: Employer asked me to come to for an interview and in it he asked me to come for a training. After training he told me to ring him because he want me to work there. So I took his number and thought about it then rang. But the message went to an answering machine. Then my employer told me that he rang me a few times but it went to my answering machine. But he didn’t leave a message because he wasn’t sure it actually my phone. During this I apply for another job over the net. They asked me to come for an interview but when I went to the store the manager who was supposed to interview me has finish his shift and left the store. So I took my first job offer. But I didn’t like and after working two days I quit.

After I quit I went to three other store to put applications and I put all three on the same day. But no one called me yet. So I thought that I go to so many stores and put applications in every department. I know I should do this because each store work independently. But in my head the voice is tell me not to go and put applications. Beucase I will be waisting my time. Instead I should be studying. In away it also true after traveling every where I get tired and after that I don’t feel like studying. But if I want a job I should go to places and put applications. But the voice says if you do that you are not listening to me and you will be doing stupid things and you have to confess and repent. This confess and repent part is the freaky thing to me. Beucase when I confess it tell me that my confesion is not good enough or it says that GOD cannot heard you or GOD didn’t hear what I said. So it makes me re-do the confessions again and again which leads to the depressed unhappy state which ruins my whole day.

Why it tells me not to go to those stores to put applications?

why it telling me it’s a stupid thing to do?

Why it forces me to repent and confess?

Why it tells me that my confession is not enough?

Why it leads me to confess repeatedly of the same things till I reached a depressed state?

Why it says that when I don’t listen to it, I have committed a sin?

Why it says that doing stupid things is a sin?

Why? Why? Why?

If I do stupid things, would it come under a sin?

If GOD tell me to do something and if I don’t do it, would I be committing sin?

Who’s voice is it, is it GOD or Satan?

Today is Saturday, basically a free day for me. I want to go for a job hunt but the voice it my head says not to go, and if I go I would be doing a stupid thing.

PS: I have tried recruitment agencies but it’s difficult to find a part time job from those place that meet student’s time table and resources.



When I was doing another course, I used to do a janitorial job. I almost got labeled by that job, because I was working as a janitor in open areas such as shopping malls. But I know that if I asked that janitorial company they would offer me a part time job to do during my studies. But I don’t want to do janitorial anymore because of :
1. Janitorial is a very dirty job, it makes you unclean thus attracts you to demons.
2. I told my friends that I’m not doing any Janitorial jobs again.
3. I had a couple of issues with some of my coworkers during my previous employment in that company.

I’m a bit confused at the moment.

Jax

Leon, this is serious now.
You must go to a Bible believing, Spirit filled church, and get counsel.
You need to talk to a mature Christian that will help you.
The battle going on in your mind is a spiritual one.
God isnt a hard task master, He doesnt keep on at you grinding you down.
Until you can speak to someone (and you must as soon as poss) keep reading the Bible, read uplifiting passages , ones that encourage you.
God bless.

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Washing the feet of the desciples wasn't the job of a King, he did it out of love. We work for our wages but also to glorify God through living a christian life and being the best example we can be in WHATEVER job we are doing.

The place you work in, regardless of it's cleanliness has absolutely no affect on wether demon's are attracted to that place or not. If the light of God is within in you you have nothing to fear EVER. What ever befalls you is allowed by God and you are able to overcome it because God is faithfull and has provided a way out,a way around or a way through it. He knows what we need before we even know so trust in God.

Housesitter

Leo please do this.

Contact your Pastor TODAY and tell him about the voices and all your other feelings about being under attack.
I am so pleased that you recently found and joined a good church and were baptised. Now go and see the Pastor and listen to his advice and be guided by him.
This problem of yours could be caused by a number of things and some could be serious.
The problem could be spiritual but it could also be a medical problem
Do not put it off.
Ask your Pastor. He is in a better position to help you than anyone on this forum. He is there with you.
God bless you

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Due to the potentially serious nature of this problem and the dangers of inappropriate advice the thread is being closed.

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Boanerges

Agreed 100%

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