Leonidus

GOD loves me and he hears me and he gives me the things that I ask. He has already given me some thing that I have prayed for a year. The people around me that is impossible to get what I got from him. But he has given it to me. ONLY GOD can do that impossible. I LOVE my GOD with ALL MY HEART I BOW DOWN TO GOD from the things that he has given me gives me enough evidence to confirm my belief on him.

I Love praying. It’s one of the things that I enjoy doing. I pray for hours.
But not these days though. Why I don’t pray as I used to:

1. I have a man live in next in our hostel. Who loves dig rubbish of other people and spread them in the whole hostel. I live in a YMCA student hostel where there are people of different categories from Students to Homeless and Back packers to retired senior people lives. However the man next to my room is 60+ years old and who is a horse race gambler. When I pray he laughs worst he spread about me in the whole hostel. He and his mate another 60+ year old are like detectives in YMCA in for dig and search for rubbish. So I stopped praying on regular basis.
2. As I mentioned in this thread http://www.christianforumsite.com/general-discussions/12994-i-hear-voice-my-head-but-doesnt-sound-supportive.html that I hear voices in my head those voices say negative things.

I’m the only brown person in my class. For The amount of skills and knowledge that I have has created jealously in my fellow class mates especially in the local ones. They don’t like me because I’m brown and I’m good at what I do. They tried so many things to give up my studies, isolation, laughing at me every time I make a mistake…etc. Since I don’t hook up with girls for dating…etc they called me a homosexual. So basically I fight fire with fire now. I expose my skills at the right time when it needed and unexpectedly so the one who hate me couldn’t stand in their grounds. I just want some one to ask me where I’m from and what my name is? But their pride has stopped them from doing that. I got unbelievable amount of pressure from my local peer student and tutor. Then I prayed for them. After submitting few assignments a couple of tutors started to be friends with me. Actually I asked GOD to make them be friend with me, I believe that’s why. Thank you GOD for that. I also got great marks on my assignments I thank GOD for that too. But the peer pressure increases. It’s like the whole hell is coming after me. I pray for peers as well. Hmm… some peers started smile with me I hope that is for real and if that’s the case then I thank GOD for that too.

But this peer ignorance and pressure builds hate in me. I asked GOD to remove this Hate from my heart and he did, Every day he does remove it from me. but when I go back to the class the stuff that they say to me re-builds that hate.

I have difficulties of making friends.
I'm not satisfied with anything that i eat...
I'm not satisfied with anything that i drink...
It's like what ever i do eating, drinking , movies...etc there is an Emptiness in me? I dont know why? It started to happen recently during last week
I feel like i want to screem, and ask GOD what is happening to me?

I want to get close to GOD and I want to do my studies and I want to do things that I love doing and I want to do things that I want to do. Any advices?

smellycat

don,t let anybody else keep you from truth,this is what this world is about.

Kevin

Hi Leonodus,

You are clearly going through a battle.

God is with you. He promised never to leave us or forsake us.
Jesus has overcome this world.
Jesus also said that we will be persecuted because of Him and we will be blessed because of this.

As you have stated in another thread, you wish to be baptised. This is something that you should not put off. Jesus told us that baptism is something we have to do as christians.

You need to hold fast to your faith, I know how difficult this type of persecution can be. But know this, God has greater plans for you. The stronger your foundation the higher you can build.

You need to find some good christian freinds who can help you through this current situation. You need fellowship at church.

My advise is to increase your prayers and not to stop. Daniel continued praying even when he knew it could mean the end of his life. Only through faith did he see and experience the miracles that followed.

Go and read the book of Daniel and see how young, faithfull men stood up in the face of terrible persecution. They too dedicated their lives to God, right down to the food they ate. Nothing detered them from God, not even the possibility of a terrible death. Many people only look at the prophetic words of Daniel and miss the incredible faith these young men had.

I too have difficulty making freinds, and it used to worry me, but God has shown me that this is the way He has made me and it is for a specific reason. I do not know if it is the same for you, only God can reveal that to you.

Have faith, God is in control. Listen to His word, continue to pray and grow in your faith. You will see Gods work in your life.

I will pray for you.

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Isa 9:6 For to us a Child is born, to us a Son is given; and the government shall be on His shoulder; and His name shall be called Wonderful, Counselor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace.

BCheezy

I'm sorry, I didn't read all of your message so I don't know if this is something you do or not, but don't coward or back down to mental midgets that spread nontrue ish about you. If people come up to you, there's no reason why you can't send off a vibe that says "get back into your own business." You don't have to physically or verbally send out abuse. But, you can put an imaginary veil around yourself by sending out the kind of VIBE that says, "I'm not gunna take this crap anymore". There are ways to add just a tiny bit of bite to your tone (and I mean only a TINY bit) to make it known what you think of how you are being treated. You can look at someone a certain way, not like you are going to charge them, but as if you WILL NOT TOLERATE anything that is done against you. I think this exactly what you need, because you are fighting back, without actually fighting back.

Correct me if I'm wrong anyone but there is nothing in the scripture against a vibe. He's not treating anyone disrespectfully, he's not harming anyone, and he's not losing any dignity, he's not putting anyone else down.

It doesn't mean your personality has to change along with this, you can still speak kind words when you are being respectfully treated. You can still help someone in need. I've seen the worst creeps out there back down and respect a spicy defensive vibe. Nobody wants to pick on someone they fear.

As for the gaining friends thing, I have no clue. I struggle with that one too. Doing good deeds apparently doesn't get you friends these days. Only drugs and alcohol get you friends. What a disgrace.

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Boanerges

Brother Leo it is my experience that when people are unkind to me I need to pray for them right away as my heavenly Father is very protective of me. As far as people it is sadly the nature of the old man to fear those not like himself. Trust is this- God will make a way. I am praying His peace in your heart and I am praying that He would knock down some of those walls of division . Ask God to use yo and be glorified in this situation.
Many blessings in Jesus Name, your brother Larry.

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Anything that dims my vision for Christ, or takes away my taste for Bible study, or cramps me in my prayer life, or makes Christian work difficult, is wrong for me; and I must, as a Christian turn away from it. – J. Wilbur Chapman