FarsightX3

I dont know why I do this. I'll be on the path for Jesus for a couple months and then back off the path for a couple months. It would just be that pattern. I ask my self, if my faith is strong because of this. When I get off the path, it seems I become guilable in a sense and think; what if I believe in Jesus and everything about Christianity, and nothing happends when I die. I also get back to my conisistant sins I would do when I am not in Christ. When I am off the path I give in too easily as of when I am on the path I try my hardest to resist. And when something goes wrong when I am off the path of Jesus I will go back to him. It makes me feel like I am using him for my selfish needs. Which I am not a selfish person as to oppose to many others I know.

The thing that happened, was I caught a group of my friends being two faced and talking behind my back. It seems they never really cared for me and they say I like to make up stuff about things when I do not. I just state my opinion and it is usually wrong to them. They have no respect. Apparently they felt like this for a long time. So I ask questions of why and what did I do wrong to them. All they can do is slander names back at me such as you are "emo". That word really annoys me. One of them considers him self a christian and seems like hes the dictator of them all. And what I say about my faith is wrong and his is right, he is very thick headed.

Why do people have to treat others like crap? I dont know why I let this bother me. I guess because I am a nice person and believe people should not do such things. This world is ugly. I dont belong in this world. Like in the book of James, God says, he who loves the world is an enemy of God.

Born2LoveYou

This is what I wrote not long ago for another member who was facing a sinful addiction, something I also had been through.
I've just copied it from my other reply to here, so it talks about the "other sin", but Just think about it as YOUR sin, because it complies with all sins.

I have been through this addiction and only recently become free of it, again.
So many times I would view porn, knowing it was wrong, but it bring some satisfaction, but not the right kind of satisfaction.
I would be viewing porn, repenting asking for firgiveness then 2 days later viewing it again and keep repenting and asking for forgiveness, that cycle went on for a few years. Each time I done it, I had a bit of satisfaction, even though I knew it was wrong.
We all have a void in our hearts and we all need something to fill that void. Unfortuanetly, many Christians and non-Christians fill that void with the wrong thing, porn, drugs, theft, drunkeness ect ect, It all brings tempary satisfaction, but even though we know its wrong, we still use it because we want satisfaction.
The only thing that really really satisfys our hearts is the love and forgiveness of Christ.
As you may know, Being a Christian isn't easy at all.

But listen, we care more about our sins that what Jesus does!!

Come before God and cry out that you want to break free of this habbit, that in your own strength that you cannot do it and you need God to help you.
God is waiting for you to turn to Him and for you to give your heart to Him so that He can help you break free of it!
He loves you so much and wants you to be free, God is already there, He has already got the solution to your problem, even before you had it!
He has done it!
You have just got to give up your life to Him, Cry out to God for forgiveness and strength to overcome this.

I have been through this and I know just how difficult it is to break free of it.
Remember, In our own strength, we can do nothing, but we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us!

If you are serious about breaking this habit, then you have to be serious to God about it.
He is waiting for you to come running back to Him.

Once you remove this habit from that "void" in your heart, you will have an empty void in your heart that will need filling.
The best thing for healing that void is to get closer to God in your relationship with Him.
Spend time whenever you have it just worshipping God, Praying to Him, Praising Him just talk to Him like he's your best freind and he's stood beside you. Jesus is the bestest friend you can ever have!

Just take your focus off the lust / porn and focus on Him.
Thats what He is waiting for. He's waiting for you to give Him your heart. I know this is going to be hard, But take it from me, You stick with it and you WILL be FREE !!!
God has to take you through this, there is a wall between you and God at the moment, that wall is porn. God could easily lift you up over that wall, but He doesn't do it like that, If He lifts you over teh wall then you won't be able to stand up to it if it happens again. Instead God helps you break down or break through that wall that is holding you back from getting Closer to Him! So that if the temptation ever comes close to us, We can fight off the temptation. God will show you the way out. You have just got to trust Him.
In 1 Corinthians 10:13 it says No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

When ever you are tempted, say NO! Pray to God ask to kill that temptation. Keep at it.

Keep resisting the devil and he WILL flee from you!
Do something great, today!
Delete ANY pictures, videos, internet favorites, browsing history, chuck any magazines, dvd's, videos ect away.
And Keep searching, MAKE SURE everything is clean.
I thought I had deleted everything from my PC before and turned out I had a few things left on here, and the devil will use them against you.

This bit in Blue is what Brother Larry Shared with me and now I am sharing it with you, I hope that is ok, Brother Larry?

Rom 7:19 For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do.
Rom 7:20 Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me.
Rom 7:21 I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me.
Rom 7:22 For I delight in the law of God after the inward man:
Rom 7:23 But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.
Rom 7:24 O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death?
Rom 7:25 I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin.

These Words were written by one of the greatest men of God who ever lived. If he can struggle with his flesh then so can we. If we fall we get up and start back anew. Anytime we try to live life in our own strenght independant of God we will fall. And then there are times when we just flat out choose to sin. This can escalate until we are at a point were this seems unescapable but I can tell you it is not. If we but stop even for a moment and call on Jesus He will send deliverance. If we do this every time we are tempted we will not fall. It will then be down to those times when we really want to sin that we will stumble as opposed to those times we felt helpless and out of control.
We are called to fight the good fight of faith and we are called to not weary in well doing. If we began to submit our hearts to God each time this situation arises it will began to loose it's power. If we simply allow ourself to be drawn in then we will fall. It really is a simple as crying out " Jesus help me and deliver me from this" at the very moment of temptation. The choice is ours and victory can be found in Christ alone.
If we do fall will he keep forgiving us? Yes- God never rejects a man who is honestly struggling and wants to be free. The deep feeling of dispair and the heartbreak felt after such actions is simply our spirit reacting to the conviction we are feeling.
Many have been lied to. They think they cannot be free but this just isn't so. Again each time we put something like this in Christ's hands it looses power and attraction to us. While we will always have desires (as this is part of our physical make up) they are not overpowering when placed in proper perspective. There is simply an overwhelming deluge of stimulation in todays culture. They way girls dress, the tv, magazines ,bill boards, etc. Even so we can call on Christ and ask Him to help us to see things thru His eyes.
Don't give up, don't be discouraged and don't waery of well doing.

We all fall at some time in our lives, weather it is only a couple of times or loads of times, but remember, God loves us no matter what!!!

I hope that this is of some help to you Brother.

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Boanerges

Np my brother!

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Anything that dims my vision for Christ, or takes away my taste for Bible study, or cramps me in my prayer life, or makes Christian work difficult, is wrong for me; and I must, as a Christian turn away from it. – J. Wilbur Chapman

Boanerges

FarsightX3 we all have stray thoughts and ideas. I was being bombarded with that lie from hell- what if there is no Jesus, no heaven when I die- was my life a waste?
First there is a Jesus and His Word is true. I soak in His presence and I am saturated by His glory- truly there is none like Him. His faithfulness sustains me, His love guides my path and His provision sustains my life.
Second If there were no heaven I would gladly serve Him still for He is worthy of all my love and life.
But there is heaven and there is Jesus there with open arms. Do not be lied to.
As far as others- some may not know Christ, some may claim to but not know Him anyway, some may know Him but be young in their spiritual maturity and some may have walked with Him for some time yet still not gotten completely free. One thing these people have in common- they are in bondage and the god of this world seeks to influence their lives. We are indeed only totally free from this condition as we walk with the Spirit (our spirit being filled with and in complete submission to and total dependence on the Holy Spirit). Any other time we can all manifest d some form of bondage or another. The thing is we must see these people thru God's eyes. Sure they made fun of you and hurt you but if they were full of the Holy Ghost do you think they would be acting that way? Or were they simply reacting out of a lifetime of bad habits, bad choices, wounding and demonic bondage? In truth when someone comes after you it is a sign that person needs you prayer to get free. May God grant us eyes to see and a heart of understanding- for He loved us when we were unlovely. Instead of paying back our wickedness He paid the ultimate price for us out of His great love.
Please pray this:
Heavenly Father I choose to release ___ and ___. If there were free and full of your love and life they could not act that way. I choose to release them and receive the inner healing that comes only from you. Bless them Lord and set them free, heal their hearts. All this I ask in Jesus Name believing I receive amen.

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Anything that dims my vision for Christ, or takes away my taste for Bible study, or cramps me in my prayer life, or makes Christian work difficult, is wrong for me; and I must, as a Christian turn away from it. – J. Wilbur Chapman

Whirlwind

Far - a lot of us aren't being cast away from God repeatedly...but we're guided back to the light frequently.

When we're doing good, Far, evil is going to fight to get us back. God can and will be your shield, my friend. Be careful how you're led away from God's light, though...satan himself masquerades as an angel of light (2 Corinthians 11:14). The devil can make wrong things seem so right. The devil can reward you with instant gratification and immense bodily pleasures for doing bad things, but those rewards are short, quick, and they die hard.

But if you pray for God to steel your heart, He will. 'Cuz hey! Christians can be cool, too! And those rewards will linger on for eternity.

God Bless you, my Friend!!!

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Jesus is the Living Word.

da_man

Far, We all go through "seasons" in our life. I wish I could say that I am always fully devoted. But you know what? Jesus accepts us all the time. He loves to see us running back to Him so that He can embrace us.
Look at John the Baptist. He had doubts. We all have doubts. I think it is human nature. But we have been given the Truth. That's why you keep coming back. Your heart knows the truth.
Romans7:15-24
15I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[a] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God's law; 23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death?



The devil is always waiting for a chance to get a foothold in our lives. But he is no match for our God.

Boanerges

Heh FarsightX3, welcome back to the path!

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Anything that dims my vision for Christ, or takes away my taste for Bible study, or cramps me in my prayer life, or makes Christian work difficult, is wrong for me; and I must, as a Christian turn away from it. – J. Wilbur Chapman

Banarenth

I feel like I've been off the path so often, I have a summer home there. Every time has cost me something, every time It's been harder to return, every time, I come back with scars.

And sometimes, the only thing that I have to show for it, is that others who have heard about it, have been encouraged to run from it. If that's all I ever gain from it, than it's far more than I could ever have hoped for.

I mean look at my life. It was a mess. I'm 34, divorced, I barely get to see my kids more than 2x a year, and up until just a few weeks ago, only spoke with them a few minutes a week. I've been into pretty much every religion known to man, and I think a few that were just made up. I've wrapped myself in unhealthy sexual relationships, unhealthy pseudo-sexual relationships, and unheathly friendships. I literally hated God, hated Christians, hated church at various points in my life, sometimes for YEARS.

And now, I have confidence in the direction God is drawing me. I don't know where I'm going, but I'm going, and as fast as my feet will carry me. I find myself laughing at my own actions, and smiling like a hyena for absolutely no reason whatsoever. I'm acting like a middle-school student with his very first boyhood crush, and I'm pretty sure I'd run under a table if this girl said "boo" loud enough at me. And for the first time EVER, I looked at myself in the mirror and smiled, because I liked what I saw looking back at me. I always hated my smile. I never thought I was handsome enough, but I hated how I looked even more when I smiled. I've realized that after 16 years of torture, I'm absolutely free from the bondage this other girl has had on me, and I can honestly say, I'm not even attracted to her at all anymore, Because she represents everything that I can not be a part of in life.

Living in God's will, and KNOWING that you are living a life that will make God smile...nothing can compare to that.

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