Bondman

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Bondman

If I'm not around much today (Thursday, much of which is actually Friday here) it's because my Darling is still really ill, in bed, and too weak to get up. When her carer and my carer come I have to do a certain amount of things with them, a couple of which will be quite difficult.

Just wanted you to know in case...

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Bondman

If I'm not around much today (Thursday, tho most of it is actually Friday here) this is because my Darling is still very ill, in bed, and too weak to be up. When my carer and her carer come I will need to be there for some of the time, and do a couple of things that will probably be rather difficult.

Just wanted to let you know.

- BM

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Bondman

If I'm not around much today (Thursday, tho most of it is actually Friday here) this is because my Darling is still very ill, in bed, and too weak to be up. When my carer and her carer come I will need to be there for some of the time, and do a couple of things that will probably be rather difficult.

Just wanted to let you know.

- BM

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Bondman

If I'm not around much today (Thursday, tho most of it is actually Friday here) this is because my Darling is still very ill, in bed, and too weak to be up. When my carer and her carer come I will need to be there for some of the time, and do a couple of things that will probably be rather difficult.

Just wanted to let you know.

- BM

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Faithwoman

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guess it's my turn to "fess up" now since Robin did and share with ya'll what I am going through. I wrote what's below to Fluffy in a pm because I didn't think I wanted anyone else to know, but I felt in need of prayer. I'd even asked someone a while back if I had to go through what it seemed everyone else on this forum has gone through because I couldn't imagine ever being down again since I met Jesus. But, guess what . . . "But, Oh, well. I'm going through a lot of "stuff" right now I guess. Been feeling kinda lost lately. I never thougt I'd get discouraged like I am because I was so high for a long time. I don't want anyone to know, though. Just you. I know I need to find my personal relationship with Heavenly Father somehow. I feel kinda far away. I feel uncomfortable in my own skin right now. I know that sounds odd. I don't even know how to express it. Just that I'm kinda not feeling like smiling, or victorious or something. Who knows. Don't worry, just pray for me. Thanks, Fluffy. Ok, so there you have it. I'm "there" I guess. By the way, Fluffy's answer was so very good. She said it is a time of refining. I don't think I care too much being in a refining. But I realize I must depend on faith, not always feelings. Thanx for prayers. I guess we have all been here at one time or another and will be because this world is not our home.

Sweet Surrender,
Praises to you this morning. It did take alot to "fess" up..I know it is hard, but for myself I have found when I do.. man.. it is sooooooo powerful.. I Know I am never alone.. I have Jesus.. but more importantly.. Jesus has placed all of you here on earth to help me with my walk.. he does not want us to do it alone.. he wants us to reach out to those who love us.. and care for us. and want the best for us..
I am praying for you.. Like Fluffy said.. we are all just going through that refined fire.. he is preparing us.. and yes it is a struggle.. but I don't know about you but I would much rather be refined and go to heaven than what the other choice is and that is to be in hell...

Hugs and love to you
Robin

Faithwoman

Man.. what awesome posts lately! especially this morning for me..

For you see, last night I took another huge step.. I called my mom and was talking about my apartment hunting and how stressed and frustrated I was.. Remember the apartment I looked at on Monday? they wanted a 2 year lease.. it was a beautiful place! and 2 blocks from work , I could walk, save on gas and such.. but I did not want to sign "My life" away for 2 years.. I filled out the application and they called yesterday to offer me the place! I prayed before I called back..I explained with being new to the area and a new job, I was hesitant in signing for 2 years as I was not sure where the Lord was leading me and would they consider one year.. they were more than happy to.. I asked them if they could wait until Monday for my final answer as I have to travel back home to see if I can get a moving company and such.. (you see I have to pay for the Month of May at this new place,, plus give 30 day notice to my old place which means I have to pay there as well...they just wanted me to write them a check to hold which I did..

I did alot of soul searching these past few days.. in regards to the dating relationship I was in.. you see in my heart, I really wanted the man to say don't worry about a thing. .you can live here, we can get married and such. That is what I wanted not what what the Lord wants or that would have happened.. hence my struggle.. He is not willing to committ at this time and there truly are issues there that I have been working through with the help of Bondman and others.

Anway.. I called my parents last night to tell them of the new apartment..
I know deep in their mind they don't understand why I am having to do this all on my own.. as the gentleman lives only 40 min from new job.
I shared with my mom all my "secrets".. I told my mom through many tears of where "my Life" had gotten me.. that I was diagnosed with Herpes 2 a few years back.. that I just went through a scare of potential cervical cancer because of HPV.. I told her how awesome God is.. how he has saved me and that I am working on living God's will now.. I had tried to keep "secrets" from others for so long.. just as we all do with our sins.. but THERE ARE NO SECRET SINS WHEN IT COMES TO THE LORD.. HE SEES ALL AND KNOWS ALL! You see my parents have loved me unconditionally all these 46 years of my life, they have always just wanted the best for me.. just as OUR FATHER wants for us., HE WANTS THE BEST FOR US.. HE GIVES IT FOR US.. HE HAS GIVEN HIS SON FOR US..

This was a huge cleansing for me.. there are no secrets now.. there are no secrets with the ones I love and the ones who love me.. TRULY LOVE ME.. Do you hear this.. the ones who Truly love us.. Praises and thanks to the Lord our Heavenly Father.. for loving me. for placing all of you to help share and help me grow.. I can truly go forth now and do God's will.. you see I have an desire to write and share my story to help others as God sees fit, but deep down I was hesitant because my parents did not know all.. My daughter knows, my parents know.. and of course God knows .. he knew all along! Praises to him.. I encourage you, continue to be open, continue to share, continue to be refined. . what an awesome award awaits us!

Robin

Fluffy

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Be transparent before God, He sees right thru you, anyway!
http://www.likepreciousfaith.org/testimony_val.htm
Please pray for your local emergency responders, daily.

Faithwoman

Fluffy,
I have learned that if it is going to be a lengthy one for me, I type it in word and then copy and paste it.. I hate it when I have a great one written and then I lose it.. sometimes it is hard to say it all again the same way.

Robin

Fluffy

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Be transparent before God, He sees right thru you, anyway!
http://www.likepreciousfaith.org/testimony_val.htm
Please pray for your local emergency responders, daily.