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Sounds like a scene from a movie Faithwoman, great for both of you. Good job not getting 'fleshy'! Bless you tonnes my wonderful sister.



Bondman, Jesus' ministry had just begun when He 'left'.

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Luke 15:31 - And he said unto him, Son, thou art ever with me, and all that I have is thine.
Joel 2:28 - I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your old men will dream dreams, your young men will see visions.
Matthew 7:7 - Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

Psalms 126:5 - Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy.

JOKE POLICE

Bondman

FROM BONDMAN

Re-Opening The Inner Room for whoever wishes to use it!

The Temporary Closure of the IR has given me much more time to think, pray, consider (the thread has always been a major and full-time job for me!) My health has NOT improved during the period since closure, nor does it appear that it can or will.

As I continue very ill, my spirit remains fairly strong, so that the 'real me' is more or less still here - but obviously our spirit cannot continue without our physical body is there to fully support it (to keep it going)!

During a life-time of ill-health, sometimes very severe, my body has been deteriorating for a very long time and is now so bad that I can describe it in no other way than that it is trying to die on me. Sorry to express it that strongly, but that's the TRUTH of my situation.


I've chosen to throw open this thread for any of you to continue to use for as long as you wish to.


Obviously I cannot promise to play any further part, but then again it would be nice if I sometimes could. I expect to write NO FURTHER MESSAGES as such though, as I believe in the Lord that my ministry and teaching period here is now over. Sorry!

So it's over to you guys - and if the thread does continue, then my prayer is that God will use it to continue to spiritually bless many hearts here on CFS!

With all my love!!

- BM

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Faithwoman

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So it's over to you guys - and if the thread does continue, then my prayer is that God will use it to continue to spiritually bless many hearts here on CFS! With all my love!!

Wow how awesome is that ! Praise the Lord! I wanted to get the messages printed. and wow what a trust you have in Jesus... you are an inspiration!

Faithwoman

Faithwoman

The Closing of a Door

Tonight was a hard night for me. I closed a door. You may ask what kind of door?
A door that was open for two years in my life. A door that I thought would finally bring me the love and peace I had been searching for so long of my life.

You see I met him two years ago on a Christian Internet dating site. He wowed me that first date at a fancy restaurant and even prayed publicly before the meal! It was love at first sight for me. Looking back, I see now I was seeking a relationship the Hollywood style, not God’s prescription for a relationship. I read the book Sex, Love and Lasting Relationships by Chip Ingram.

He explains the differences in this book. In the Hollywood style of a relationship, the physical attraction comes first, then the emotional, and then maybe, just maybe the spiritual aspect of the relationship. In God’s prescription for a relationship, the spiritual aspect is there first, then the emotional and lastly the physical.

We are all human. We all have those inner desires within us. God created us. Two are to become one after marriage, not before. I learned the hard way. I lived in sexual sin until this past January when I declared sexual purity. Upon doing so, I had my pap and STD testing done. It came back positive for HPV. The virus that can cause cervical cancer.
Now this is common in many women, and now in me. I followed up with a Colposcopy and everything came back fine. That my dear friends, is how much our God loves me. I believe the good Lord was giving me a warning.

I continued in this relationship with this Christian man, both of us being frustrated with our inner desires. After being led to sexual purity, I got a chance to see him for who he was. He was a great man in many ways. But, he had a hidden secret. A secret that I saw signs of and that he had even shared upon first meeting. That secret was the viewing of pornography. The “excuse” was when not in a relationship, he would use that for release.
It was safer than seeking sex somewhere else. No! The truth is it is way more damaging than one can imagine. The book Every Man’s Battle goes into much detail of sexual purity for men. I read the book front to cover. I was seeking to understand a man. A man who was faced with temptations every day, just like your husbands, boyfriends, and sons are. The scary part is that when they dabble a lit, it leads to more and potentially leads to acting out, which I believe was going on as well.


Anyway, throughout this relationship, I had my own secret. I became the biggest snoop queen on earth. I confess. I looked at his cell phone, found his user name and password to his cell phone bill, looked at history on his computer and the list goes on and on. I was becoming a woman that Christ did not want me to be. It all finally got to me and two days before my graduation from college, I broke up with him. However, I did not do what God really wanted me do to as stated in James 5:16, humble yourself, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another. I gave some round the world explanation. He came to my graduation two days later. After graduation, I confessed to him what I had done.
He cried, he prayed and asked for my forgiveness as well. I asked him what was I forgiving him for? His response “for whatever you found”. We talked and I ended up going over to his place. The next day, I had asked him “what do you mean by what I found?”. He stated for the internet.

To speed this up tonight, as one day I shall write a book of my life if the Lord leads me to, we continued to be in contact and see each other. Two weeks ago, I had enough. No, the Lord had enough. I shared that I had to let him go. I was sacrificing the man I loved to the Lord. He did not understand it all. How could I let him go after all he done for me these past two years i.e.. Encouraging me to go back to school to get my degree, supporting me through my move here to Batavia and all other things. Yes he did help me in that way, but the real person that helped me improve my life and give me all those blessings was the Lord. I seeked the Lord in all that I did. He gave me the answers I needed. This man was not willing to seek help for his addiction. I did not cause it, I could not control it nor could I cure it. But I know who can! Jesus! Only this man can choose for himself to seek the Lord for salvation, true salvation, not just words I am a Christian.

I still had his road atlas that I borrowed for a trip this past week-end and I had his garage door opener that he gave to me two weeks into the relationship. He opened his home to me back then and it was open until tonight when I closed the door.

Knowing I could not see him, I made the trip over tonight knowing he was working. I had asked God all along to show me signs if this was a true relationship from him. God showed me all along, I just ignored the signs. Denial in life is a hard to deal with. I had been in denial. Again I found myself praying, on the way over, Lord I know this is what you want, I ask for forgiveness of ignoring the signs. Now remember, my weakness of snooping? Well, this snoop queen could not just help herself one last time. I let myself in, went to the computer, clicked on history and there I saw it. It could not be hidden from me this time. The history had not had a chance to be deleted. Surprise, surprise, a new membership to an Adult dating sex site.

I slowly clicked off. I walked in the other room. I laid the atlas down along with the garage door opener. I walked out of the garage, punched the security code to shut the door. A door that will always remain shut in my life. A door that through God’s love, grace, mercy and forgiveness I was able to close.

Are the doors to my life closed? No! Jeremiah 29:11 states I have a great hope and future for you says the Lord. I truly know when the Lord shuts one door he will open another.
As he cleans the muck out of my own life, that next door is going to have so much more waiting for me!

Moral of this story- Do not ignore the warning signs that are there. You can cause yourself much pain and sorrow. God wants the best for all of us. After all he put his son on that cross to die for you and me for our transgressions. But, we must seek him and surrender our whole life to him not just the parts we choose to.

Bondman

WOW!!! That's what I call a WIN for the Lord Jesus! (and thus for you!) Well done!!

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Fluffy

Thank you, Bondman, for opening this thread up to everybody. I was missing it, very much! I am so glad that you can still join us, though! We were missing you, terribly, too! You have a lot of wisdom and experience that you can share with us, as you are able. And we need it as long as we can get it!

Faithwoman, I am so proud of you! You were faithful and obedient. I think God was using your weakness for snooping to put the finishing touches on your letting go. And the closing of the garage door was a symbol of closing the door to the relationship for good.
Now, you are on your way to bigger and better things! Yay!

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Faithwoman

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I think God was using your weakness for snooping to put the finishing touches on your letting go. And the closing of the garage door was a symbol of closing the door to the relationship for good. Now, you are on your way to bigger and better things! Yay!

Bring it on.. whoo hoo... !!!! Faithwoman

Bondman

You're very kind, Fluf! What I mostly see is this sinner, undeservedly saved solely by grace...

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blankgirl

i just messed up. threw up after i ate. haha. and why am i laughing when it is so serious a sin? i don noe anymore. done it so many times and said sorry to the Lord and yet i go again.

speechless now.

Bondman

Hi sweetie!

I'm so sorry to hear this. But I don't see it as a serious sin. Considering that this has gone on so long I see it as a serious problem, but not a serious sin. That you feel so bad about it is not a good thing for your wellbeing either. So...

I think I'm right that you have previously sought medical help with this. In any case, it seems to me that you need some sort of serious medical help with this. I would say that you simply must get help to find the basic reasons WHY this continues in your life; thenhelp to DEAL with those reasons in such a way as to rid yourself of this problem once and for all.

If you could tell us here what you think you could do, then we could support you, including seriously praying about you finding the RIGHT medical help. My personal and strong feeling is that it's time for us to work with you and God to get this sorted!

We love you!!!

- BM


EDIT: Earlier in my life I had had a serious problem with my self-worth and view of myself, not with your symptoms, but just as serious as yours in what this was doing to me.

I found someone who was GOOD, who was able 1st to help me to SEE what the problem was (rejection as a child by my Father, something I was totally unaware of), and 2nd was then able to help me with HOW to overcome this: I learnt how to go about changing my view of myself. It wasn't easy, took quite a deal of time, but in the end I was permanently healed, and my life changed for ever!

I'm praying for a result for you as good as mine, and cannot see a reason why this cannot happen as we all commit to PRAY BELIEVINGLY FOR YOU.

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