Faithwoman

Dear Christian Online Family,
First of all thank you all so much for your prayers and support.
I will give you the quick version.
He came over last nite, to help with things around the house, we had dinner, then sat down for coffee on the patio. I prayed and prayed, my stomach was in knots. I beat him with (verbally) with issues that I felt he still had. I asked him how much he loved Jesus.. etc.. anyway I told him that I felt God was leading me to letting him go. That I needed to give him to the Lord.. long conversation. I told him that I loved him.. he did not reply. I walked him to his car.. he said I love you, I said I love you so much.. he said I know that.. anyway. .. waking up this morning it was still unsettled. I went to a church meeting in a town 1/2 hour away.. prayed alot and thought alot.

He did not call, but I called him.. I apologized for beating him up with a 2/4 verbally.. said I was sorry for judging him.. but I was letting him go. Yes there was issues on his part, and there was issues on my part. I told him that for 2 people to be together, God had to have the muck cleaned out of their lives. I needed to be with God. I needed not to have anyone in my life right now except the Lord. I need to seek God's will for my life. I need to have the Lord continue to heal me of the past pain. I have to continue to learn about the Lord . I need to continue to learn about obedience etc..

There is the short version. I must say.. I THANK ALL OF YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART, BUT SPECIAL THANKS TO BONDMAN FOR NEVER GIVING UP ON ME. FOR GIVING ME GOD'S WORD AND REMINDING ME IN HIS EVER GENTLE, SOMETIMES STRONG EMAILS (BECAUSE THE LORD SHOWED HIM WHAT TO SAY TO ME).
Bondman wrote:

But if you are to the point where you really, really want to do it - then why are you so determined TO DO IT THE HARDEST POSSIBLE WAY?

He encouraged me to write and say it is finished, it is over. I chose to call. There were good parts of this relationship and bad parts as with any.

I can tell you, yes I have bawled like a baby since hanging up, but now I do feel peace. The Lord is my comforter. He will provide for me. I just have to trust him.

Bondman, may you know the Lord has blessed you with a special gift, I don't know what the Lord has planned for you , but please know and rejoice with me and the Lord in this FINALLY happening. If we all could just save one person from a life of hurt and pain, would it not be worth it to put it all out there? I encourage each and everyone of you, to go forth and be shining light to others.

I have been stripped of many things in the last 2 months, removed from my old town, my friends, my church, my family , the man I love. However in the same time I was blessed with a new job, a beautiful home, meeting new friends.. BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY.. I AM RIGHT WHERE THE LORD WANTS ME .. WITH HIM AND TRUSTING IN HIM.

LOVE
FAITHWOMAN

Bondman

Thankyou for sharing all of this, sweetie. Doing something that is contrary to what our flesh desires, setting yourself to do what is right and what is the Lord's way - this is TOUGH!! But good comes from obedience. Spiritual good I mean. Obedience gives the Lord so much more of you to work with - from which you will profit in the Spiritual realm in time to come. And He always honours those who will obey Him!

My part in any of this or with any person is simply to be a conduit for God. He uses our hands, mouth, eyes, ears. He needs willing hearts who will allow Him to do this. He needs those who have learnt how to LOVE, and are prepared to be literally used by Him to reach others with HIS agape.

I wouldn't expect your days to be easy as you move forward. Losing a major relationship always means a time of grieving, something you must go through in order to be whole down the track. We are here to love and support you as you continue your walk with the Lord, even as we are doing the same in our own way.

May His inner love and peace by His Spirit be yours!

- BM

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Bondman

Well, tomorrow is 'P' day, when they bring an electric wheelchair or Power Chair for us to check, to ensure that it's right for me! Today I've been incredibly ill in body and my head, so I sure hope I'll be a bit more alive tomorrow!

I won't be throwing the crutches away. The Power Chair (we're already working out a name for it, hee!) is to relieve me of the physical stress that's become too much for my body to handle, i.e., more of my mobility round the home can be done in the chair, but I'll still use the crutches so I don't lose even more body condition. It's the normal 'use it, or lose it' scenario!

The Doc wants me to get outside in it away from these four walls I'm in every day. So as soon as we can get ramps to drive it the one step out of the front door it's sure gonna be strange 'motoring' out into the sun and down to the park close by - at the amazing speed, and this is full bore, okay, of... wait for it... 5 mph. Wow!! (The brand is Speedie. Maybe that will have to be it's name!)

I shall keep you posted about my new and excting 'adventure'!! (hmm... maybe even a pic...)

- BM

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Bondman

Message #114

YEP, SERVING THE LORD IS GOOD! – Part 2

... continued from Part 1

Another important thing to remember is that people with a strong sense of responsibility like myself can very easily get caught in a particular trap: seeing a need and feeling that they MUST help with that need. I had to learn many years ago that the need is NOT the call!! The call is when GOD TELLS you to do it. Until then, leave well alone - still remembering THAT SERVICE IS GOOD!

(One more trap is to become 'too busy'. The saying is that if you need someone to do something look for the busiest ones and ask them! The reason is obvious – they are clearly the most WILLING ones! People may ask. But make sure you listen to HIS voice before acting!!)

We must also watch for something that I saw maybe in my very first year as a Believer. It's to do with people's PERCEPTION of what is the work of God. It seems that GOD IS ALLOWED TO START A WORK, but NEVER EVER EVER is He allowed to CLOSE A WORK! And thus I began to see people doing what they considered to be a serivce of God when God actually wanted the whole thing closed! So beware CONTINUING IN A SERVICE long after GOD WANTS YOU TO. That is, we must always take CARE to be aware of His CONTINUED calling to us - including His calling to us to STOP!! (Some things do NOT have to go on forever…)

Finally, and of crucial importance, do not put your SERVICE FOR God, AHEAD OF YOUR GOD!!! This is a most TERRIBLE TRAP!! People who are serving and doing everything God has required of them can become contented, and NOT growing in their Christian and Spiritual life, not growing towards maturity! WHY? - because they are WORKING instead of RELATING!!! Your RELATIONSHIP with God COMES FIRST OF ALL!! It comes AHEAD of service. Service should always STEM OUT OF your relationship with the Living God!

You are serving in God's Kingdom upon earth. A high privilege indeed!! And no matter who you are or what your abilities, you CAN make a difference – whether that difference is small or large! Both are of EQUAL value to the Lord!

May your service for Him be sweet indeed!

- BM, with his Lady

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hisdreamer

*sneaks in*

*waves*



Can't stay long I've got to clean my apartment the in laws will be here next week and the hubby not to long after but I wanted to say HELLO!

*sneaks back out*

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Fluffy

Who was that strange person *sneaking* in here?
Could it have been? No, it couldnt be! Or could it?
HisDreamer! Hello!

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Be transparent before God, He sees right thru you, anyway!
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Please pray for your local emergency responders, daily.

Bondman

Talk about breezing in and breezing out again! Sorry, sneaking in and out! hahah!!

So wonderful to hear that hubby is making a visit. Wow, that sure will be an EXCITING time!!

Blessings to you both!

- BM

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hisdreamer

lol :P not a visit =) the hubby is coming home to stay =)
the ball has started rolling for getting out of the army and stuff.

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forgivenWretch

I would like to request that everyone pray for my dad. He is 85, and for the past two & half years, he has been lying in a nursing home, unable to do anything for himself (due to severe stroke). Yesterday afternoon about 4:00, I received a call from my brother, informing me that daddy appears to have pneumonia. He has spiked a fever, his 02 level had dropped to 70, BP of 90/40.

The only thing that has kept him alive is a feeding tube which he never wanted, but we were forced to allow, or be brought up on murder chargers by his physician at the time.

All we are allowing to be done is what ever it takes to keep him comfortable. I know this sounds harsh, but I pray that God will call him home. I try to tell myself that I am ok with him going home and I know without a doubt that he will be joining my mother when the time comes, but still I am afraid that I may not handle it well at all.

Please remember us in your prayers.

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I do not feel obliged to believe that the same God who has endowed us with sense, reason, and intellect has intended us to forgo their use. ~Galileo

smellycat

i hope he goes peacefully.my grandad was similar ,heart attack,revived ,same again,same again.you wouldn,t let a vet do these things to your dog,but hospitals are a law to themselves,my father saw the cruelty and made me promise to take him home to die with grace.and i hope i will be far away from the mungrel butchers at home.

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