Reading my old post remind me of how much I love Jesus. Or should I say how much I loved him, no I think I had it right the first time I love the Lord. My stomach just turns when I think of how I am on such a different path, I miss my days of just feasting on his word. The days when my heart sang of real joy and peace. Full of life and love Loving on Jesus on his promises waiting on his return to meet him in the air. And now look at me...what happened...ugh my stomach is turning I feel sick.

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Nowadays the silencer on my cell phone has become my very best friend. Its nice how I can just block out the noise of my phone when someone calls me that I dont want to talk to. Now if only life had the same features...huff. Being growup sucks because I know thus far in my life I have made a lot of wrong choices and if I am indeed pregnant these wrong choices will not only affect me but my child as well. Its amazing how one sin can just ruin so much. You fall into fornication and boom your faced with the possibility of becoming a parent and the difficulty of know if you are will you or will you not tell the guy. He is so unstable and has no job at the momment. And on top of all of that he is an abuser, will I allow myself or my possible child to fall into that kind of lifestyle? NO! So what do you do? Who do you turn to? Mother dosent listen, father dosent need to know, Sister will tell mother, so who can I turn to no one but Jesus. But how to you approach the HIM when you know you have disobeyed time and time again, I just feel so guilty I feel so alone. I just dont know what to do. If I talk to him will he hear me? Will he respond to his child who has strayed so very far away for Godsake I surely hope so.:(

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