CrazyIrishman

NoDoubt, I know how you feel. I have clinical depression and it always feels like nothing is getting better. Over the past few weeks every time I start to feel depressed I run to God in prayer. It's really hard because I want to feel better now, but it doesn't seem like I'll ever be healed. I've noticed day by day I get slightly better. Not alot better, just a little. I know now that I shouldn't give up or give in. Cause things will eventually get better, we just have to stay focused on God and he will help

Boanerges

We are to walk by faith and not by sight- many blessigns, Larry

NoDoubt

I don't even have a clue what the Lord wants of me.

Every person Beloved mentioned had one thing major thing I dont - social ability. Maybe you could call it personality. I just feel utterly isolated.

My therapist recommended I go out and try to meet some people. So, I did. I got shot down in every sense of the word, and returned home mentally cursing cruel strangers. I didn't want to curse them though, and even now I fight myself, forgiving them, praying for them, while the anger and hurt keeps crawling back in trying to curse them some more.

I'll get better someday. I know you are all correct. But it sure sucks in the meantime, eh? I thoght I had Aspergers, but my therapist believes I have "Schizotypal personality disorder". So I guess we'll see if the treatment for that fixes me.

butterflywings

No doubt, I am sad for your pain. Try not to label yourself, you are not defined by your condition.

You are 'NoDoubt', a child of God. He has a purpose and a future for you and are loved very much.

I do not know what you are going through and cannot identify with it, I do know pain and suffering of other kind though. All I can encourage you to do is to keep your eyes on Jesus, keep your faith and trust in God, the Great Physician and not in man. We may be told things, but it does not always make those things set in stone.

Right now, things may seem so overwhelming and you have no idea what the Lord wants with you. Just keep on seeking Him and He will reveal what He wants from you. Sometimes it is in small things, baby steps.

I am new to this website, and you are the first person I have replied to their post. Because you and your story touched my heart, it made me care, it made me want to reach out and say something encouraging and just say you are loved. Somehow just knowing that we are loved by our maker, is just enough for us to keep on going. I keep on going, because I know that is what God wants from me and I know that He loves me. People let us down, but the Lord will never leave us or forsake us. Yeshua, Jesus Christ, will never let us down.

love in Christ to you

Butterflywings

NoDoubt

Thank you

violet

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Beloved

This Forum WILL ((( help you ))) No Doubt... Like BW said start with babysteps... Tell us everything you want to know or express... You have a sounding board Here...

The Holy Spirit is here, among us and His desire is to help you ... and express His unbelievable great LOVE for YOU.

All of us have gone through deep pits and valleys, so you will grow here... Through our experience and counsel...

Ok ! Lets say you are right about everything you feel...

IT still will not stop you from being a beloved child of the most high God, or being useful to Him in His Kingdom...

Don't let satan decieve you my child, as he has tried to do with most of us...

Whatever you Lack, Ask the Father, and through the Holy Spirit you will recieve it if its His Wisdom to grant it ...

He knows the future we do not... He knows what is best for you, you do not...

Be still with in and KNOW HE IS YOUR FATHER and will only give His children GOOD THINGS.

11 “You fathers—if your children ask[a] for a fish, do you give them a snake instead? 12 Or if they ask for an egg, do you give them a scorpion? Of course not! 13 So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him.�

Footnotes:

1. Luke 11:11 Some manuscripts add for bread, do you give them a stone? Or [if they ask].

Luke 10:19
Look, I have given you authority over all the power of the enemy, and you can walk among snakes and scorpions and crush them. Nothing will injure you.
Luke 10:18-20 (in Context) Luke 10 (Whole Chapter)


with much love towards you,
angela

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Shalom

( SHALOM says: Completeness, wholeness, health, peace, welfare, safety soundness, tranquility, prosperity, perfectness, fullness, rest, harmony, the absence of agitation or discord. )

Beloved
1 Corinthians 14:1 Let Love be your highest goal.

NoDoubt

Well... Thank you. Again. It is really nice to have someone willing to listen. I'm very lonely.

Rumely

NoDoubt,

Just checking in again to say "Hi" and see how you're getting along. The nice thing about this forum is that we can't see gestures and don't demand immediate responses, or even appropriate facial expressions. Yay for smilies! I, for one, have a flat affect at this moment, but am smiling on the inside.

Having experienced the paralysis of social awkwardness and depression at times, I can relate qualitatively, though perhaps not quantitatively. I tried a Christian chat site some years ago, but found the rapid pace of interaction too much. One sad fact is that even the best communication is rather sloppy. I lost a job once partly because my best efforts to communicate in a positive and professional way were completely misconstrued in both intent and content. I've had people offended at me for years because of what they thought I communicated and which I was completely unaware had been taken wrong. I had a guy mad at me for years because he thought I had ignored him when I hadn't even been aware that he was around. Even my complete oblivion caused offense! Sometimes you just have to sigh and shrug your shoulders.

I hope you can feel at home in this forum, and I'm glad you found us.

butterflywings

Hello NoDoubt, how are things today?
You said you were lonely, may I ask do you live alone? with family? Are you able to attend church? You said you are isolated, so maybe you don't go. Would you consider it?

I know you have been shot down before with the socializing attempts and they have been very negative for you, that really stinks. And it probably put a dent in your confidence. But I think a church maybe a safer way to start, pray about this, and trust that the Lord will lead you to someone who will be understanding and kind towards you.

I know you mentioned Aspergers, I understand that your therapist is suggesting something different. However you must be showing similar symptoms to Aspergers, for you to come up with that possible diagnosis.

I will tell you this story.
I use to go to this wonderful bible study, there was a friendly group, then one day this guy turns up. Well lets say he was a little different. It took me a couple of weeks or so to get use to his interruptions, and his 'weired' comments, and sometimes, dare I say it. I found him annoying.

NOw this was something that the Lord was dealing with me about. I was humbled and Jesus helped me to change my attitude and I am thankful for that , then sometime later I gained the knowledge that this guy had Aspergers. I had never heard of this condition before, but everything became alot more clearer and I totally understood.

We all got to know this young man and he was such a valuable part of our group. We all learned something about ourselves and learned from eachother.
So please do not allow others ignorant, judgemental attitudes from allowing you from stepping out of your comfort zone and living a more social life.

People need to know that you exist, you have something very valuable to offer, be honest about your condition with others, and just tell them if need be, they will either accept you or not, it is probably going to be their loss if they do reject you, not yours.

Proverbs 3:5 'Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding'

God Bless you

butterflywings