Born2LoveYou

I feel as though my life is in a hole, i dont know what the outside world is like.

Because of my past bullying was the way of life and that was that, never could learn about life out in the big world, im nearly 18 and dont do anything. I don't know anything about it either.
But sometimes i feel im on the edge of break through.

I've always had people have to do everything for me, starting at school, sometimes when i got bullied someone (sometimes) would stick up for me, Then at home get my parents to do everything for me, for example booking driving lessons, getting the best insurance and sorting it, sortin the tax mot and all of that, i had to get my parents to get forms in for me for example EMA application for college i had to get my parents to, if i was ill i got my parents to sort the doctor out for me, everything i needed i had to get my parents to do... because of the way i am.

Bassmasa

You know, funky, I think you're exactly right. The fact that you're seeking help and trying to reach out shows very clearly that you are about to break through. Many people coast through life and don't realize it until it's far too late, millions would be thrilled to have your understanding at the age of 18.

The question is, now that you know, what will you do about it? Will you continue to fall back on others, or rely on God to help you become the man He wants you to be? He gives us free will to decide, but His Holy Spirit will help if you ask Him....we'll keep praying for you.

Boanerges

Amen Bassmassa- in our own strength we can do nothing but we can do all things thru Christ who strenghtens us!

Iskij

Hello funky, it's hard to change the way we are but God can do EVERYTHING and ANYTHING. Pray for God to continuously work in your life.

May I suggest that you start with small things like taking care of your school forms (instead of letting your parents do it for you) or engaging in a new hobby/ group activity.

God has a reason for everything. Even if you think you're such a shy person (as most of us are), God can still use you for His glory if You'll let Him. God bless

Boanerges

Amen Isjij- every journey starts with a single step-

Born2LoveYou

Thanks for all your replys.
I have been praying alot about my problems, maybe not enough, but im really struggling to break free of my past.
I am part of the worship team at my church and im the only one that cannot pray in tounges. Everyone prayed for me last night for god to break into my life and help me break free and unlock the gift of tounges.
No one knows about my pasts, and hopefully i will talk to someone within the church on sunday. My past is really holding me back and i don't know the real me.

Thank you for your support and prayer.

God bless.

Boanerges

You will be fine- forgive yourself and move on- it is much easier to receive when you are not stressing and/or condeming yourself- may His blessings be upon you- Larry

Born2LoveYou

How do i forgive myself and move on, im finding it really hard to let go of my past.
And how do you open up your heart to god, sometimes i feel im not opening it up enough or doing it wrong ?

Thank you and God bless.

Boanerges

It starts with taking your focus of yourself and putting your focus on that new creation man Gid is forming inside you!

Born2LoveYou

Greetings brothers & sisters!

Things are starting to change slowly, around the home i starting to talk a bit more, stronger, deeper and louder. My next challenge will be to take this from the home to the "outside" eg, at work, college, round a mates house ect.

I started doing somethings on my own, eg change my own quilt covers (lol), go to the bank and see someone about my account, pay cash in, and even done something way out of my comfort zone which was to wear a vest to work, the first time i've ever worn a vest out.

But i have a big problem with my speach, not being able to say words, or get mixed up. But i guess with lots of prayer and practise i will be able to overcome this problem too.

Even though im like 6'4" tall, and quite muscly, im a bit "chubby", and now i've just forgotten what i look like when im out, just focus on what im doing and not myself and what anybody else thinks.

And as im now officially an adult, im going to pray and push so hard to get my life up together, become more lively, have a laugh ect.
People won't know me, when i become the real me and not the person the world has made me be.

Woo Hoo !

God bless you all.