As I said all our walks are different. I used to struggle a lot more know I surrender as fast as possible- it seems to work best for me. Jesus walked in total submission to and then only at the leading of the Holy Spirit according to the Father's will. He did nothing in His own strength- all I can do is follow. As I abide in Him ( the Vine) His life flows in and through me and brings much change.
Anyway I have a great love for you in Jesus Name and I will be praying for you.