My advice would be to find a spiritual adviser of some sort. Someone perhaps in a position of authority who has been a strong, orthodox Christian for many, many years.
Another bit of advice would be to not to go looking for visions, mystical events, and things of that nature. Although you seem to be doing it for the right reasons, uninvited things can happen, such as demonic spirits. The safest, and best thing to do is to not go searching for them, and if it's God's will, then He will allow these things to happen to you.
I have had an encounter at one time with them while I was praying. There was a type of demonic chanting. I was terrified and prayed the Angelic Salutation, and then it stopped. The next day, I sprinkled my room with Holy Water and it hasn't happened since. This was over 6 months ago.
You're in my prayers.
Christ is risen. Glorify Him!
Andrew
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