Daniel

I have many different feelings going through me at any given time. Usually, I'm pretty happy. I feel pretty good about myself. But there are two other very dominant feelings that creep up on me every once in a while...this being one of those times.

Before I continue, I would like to say that I'm a born-again Christian who has a personal relationship with Jesus Christ, whom I know to be God. I mention this because what I am about to say will sound very confusing. It feels confusing.

One of these confusing feelings is that I'm the incarnate of Satan. I don't know how else to explain the feeling. I just feel as though I'm evil. As if I'm God's enemy, and sometimes I even feel that I have a place just as high as God Himself. Sometimes, I even believe that I am God. I know it's most likely just Satan trying to steer me off the path of righteousness and get me to fall so hard that I can't get back up. But the feeling is so bad that it feels real. The other feeling I have is that I've been put on this planet as God's example of what a fool is. I'm here to show others how NOT to be. I feel that every verse in the Bible that talks about fools is describing me, giving me a hint. This feeling is usually more devastating since I really don't want to be foolish. I want wisdom. I feel as though no matter what I do, I will never see God's eternal glory because I'm just a prop. Again, I'm certain this is Satan's way of trying to bring me down...HARD. But what I'm wondering is if anyone else here has had any of these kinds of feeling before, too. Even somewhat similar? Thanks in advance.