Violet, I feel so sorry that you have these feelings. Are you taking any meds for this problem? I showed your reply to Norm and he said medication helps him so much. But, he doesn't have the same feelings you have. He had a very violent childhood in which his father killed his mother at his age of 14. So, he thinks that's why he has panic attacks (also his father tried to drown him at a young age). But, he takes meds for panic attacks also. Since we have moved here to Iowa, he is a different person to live with and I believe it is because of the meds he was put on after he tried to commit suicide.
I just wish you did not feel the way you do about yourself. You have helped many, many people on this forum and you are such a sweet, understanding, and forgiving person. God has blessed us with you! Dear, Violet, I will pray for you because you should not have to go through this kind of thing. I will pray that God will show you what a blessed child of His you truly are. Love, Bonnie
