Otetiani

I understand humility. I am humble in my mind. I actually am quite insecure. But for some reason I come off as very arrogant. It is a real problem. I have trouble with everyone everywhere because of it. I am kind and forgiving to all and I am very generous with my help, praise, assets etc. but people still come to hate me.

I suspect it has something to do with me being abused, humiliated and rejected as a child. I am guessing it is some sort of defense mechanism I developed. I offend people often and I am usually totally baffled. In my heart I love them but somehow I display contempt or hostility.

I need help. I get fired and laid of from jobs because of it, I have no friends, Relatives seem to like me after they get to know me well, but I went through trouble with them at first.

I know G-d hates the proud and I know it affects my relationship with him too. I need as much council, scripture and prayer as you can bring to bear. I appreciate anyone who can help.