Waslost if you repent of your old sinful life and accept Jesus love and sacrifice as atonement for YOUR sins HE WILL FORGIVE YOU and He will come and make you His dwelling place. What happened to you is not strange it is in His loving nature to seek and save the lost. It is God's desire to see you saved, healed and delivered out of bondage. I am truly glad to hear your heart is ready to respond to God's call- He has been planning, waiting for the right moment, the perfect opportunity to reach you
I recommend finding a church were Jesus is truly Lord and spend time learning His word and ways, this will transform your life. As you read and study His Word remember Jesus sent us a teacher- the Holy Spirit- so when you read your bible ask the Holy Spirit to teach you and to help you understand what God is speaking to you- as God's Spirit breathes His life on His Word it will become alive to you- it will literally meet you and your needs in whatever circumstance you find yourself. Trying to understand it with your own mind will only produce works of dead religion. There is no power in satan or his way, there is no power in doing good deeds in your own strenght- But as you alow God to become real in your life you will be overwhelmed by His power and glory!As He begins to speak to you thru His Word by His Spirit your eyes will be opened and you will begin to believe Him and His Word instead of your old way of thinking- this is called being renewed in your mind and is just one wonderful step on this jouney of faith. Remember put your faith in Christ and His love for you not in your circumstances or anything else anyone you see or hear!
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