Okay, I may look a mess in a way, cuz I've been going back and forth all day. Thinking, okay, I'll drink at my party, but I wont get drunk drunk. But after fealing the "nagging" inside me still, I couldn't rest knowing I'm doing the right thing. One drop may lead to another, and THAT'S THAT. Even though I can't see me having as much fun sober.
Then the song Everything by Lifehouse hit that part of the song that I've heard hundreds of times in the last few weeks.
You're all I want
You're all I need.
You're everthing.
"Including a fun time!!!" I told myself.
My imagination doesn't see the fun, but I will go at it pure of heart and focus on feeding my spirit not my need for worldly fun. And He will make sure I DO have fun.
So I am officially announcing:
I QUIT!
Not a drop of alchohol, not only for my B-Day but hopefully ever. No going back on my word, K? K!
Signed,
Mark
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