Mopom,
Bless you sister for coming on here and telling us your story. I know it must be hard, as revealing such personal struggle can leave you feeling vulnerable. I am in agreement with everybody on this forum that you should stay away from the site you were involved with. It takes a person who is very strong and mature in their faith, very deep in the Word, and constantly in prayer to take on the task of trying to reach the lost on that forum. Even then, they should not try to do so alone. Do not let their lies and godlessness take it's toll on your heart any longer. I have a secret I must share with you that you may not have thought of before. It is a true kicker that the devil himself cannot deny. The mere existence of Satan should ease the worries of doubt in your heart. After all, Satan cannot exist if God didn't make him. Even more so, Satan would not hate you as a Christian so much and try to drag you down if Christ had not died for your sins. If your message to the Satanists and atheists was false, Satan would have no need to try to win you over or attack you. After all, who tries to fight somebody for no reason? While troubling that Satan attacks us, the fact that he does attack us is an encouraging thought. Satan attacks you because you love God, and that scares him. Satan knows that he is no match for God, or for someone who is very close to God. That's why he must deceive and keep your focus off of God. That's his way in. Surround yourself with the Word of the Lord. Pray my sister. Fellowship with other Christians, whether it be on the internet or not. The closer you get to God, the harder time Satan will have trying to get to you.
