Hello NoDoubt, how are things today?
You said you were lonely, may I ask do you live alone? with family? Are you able to attend church? You said you are isolated, so maybe you don't go. Would you consider it?
I know you have been shot down before with the socializing attempts and they have been very negative for you, that really stinks. And it probably put a dent in your confidence. But I think a church maybe a safer way to start, pray about this, and trust that the Lord will lead you to someone who will be understanding and kind towards you.
I know you mentioned Aspergers, I understand that your therapist is suggesting something different. However you must be showing similar symptoms to Aspergers, for you to come up with that possible diagnosis.
I will tell you this story.
I use to go to this wonderful bible study, there was a friendly group, then one day this guy turns up. Well lets say he was a little different. It took me a couple of weeks or so to get use to his interruptions, and his 'weired' comments, and sometimes, dare I say it. I found him annoying.
NOw this was something that the Lord was dealing with me about. I was humbled and Jesus helped me to change my attitude and I am thankful for that
, then sometime later I gained the knowledge that this guy had Aspergers.
I had never heard of this condition before, but everything became alot more clearer and I totally understood.
We all got to know this young man and he was such a valuable part of our group. We all learned something about ourselves and learned from eachother.
So please do not allow others ignorant, judgemental attitudes from allowing you from stepping out of your comfort zone and living a more social life.
People need to know that you exist, you have something very valuable to offer, be honest about your condition with others, and just tell them if need be, they will either accept you or not, it is probably going to be their loss if they do reject you, not yours.
Proverbs 3:5 'Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding'
God Bless you
butterflywings