I don't even have a clue what the Lord wants of me.
Every person Beloved mentioned had one thing major thing I dont - social ability. Maybe you could call it personality. I just feel utterly isolated.
My therapist recommended I go out and try to meet some people. So, I did. I got shot down in every sense of the word, and returned home mentally cursing cruel strangers. I didn't want to curse them though, and even now I fight myself, forgiving them, praying for them, while the anger and hurt keeps crawling back in trying to curse them some more.
I'll get better someday. I know you are all correct. But it sure sucks in the meantime, eh? I thoght I had Aspergers, but my therapist believes I have "Schizotypal personality disorder". So I guess we'll see if the treatment for that fixes me.
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