NoDoubt...
by man's measurement they may have found something wrong with you. Mankind has always searched with a microscope to find fault in one another. Mankind isn't always right.
Just by reading what you've written, judging by the heart, I see nothing wrong with you. You're, dare I say, more intelligent than some people that I know (who have degrees from some of the best universities in the country!)
What you're telling us is from your heart. Not your brain. This pain that you're feeling comes from other men putting a label on you...not from God.
True story: Up until the fifth grade or so, I thought that there were more Indians in the world than there were white people. I grew up on the reservation, was schooled there, lived there, ate there. Then, slowly, I discovered that I was an Indian. I was shocked! I learned about treaties and measles blankets and the Oregon Trail. I learned about prejudice and genocide and all kinds of awful things. Suddenly, I didn't want to be an Indian, it wasn't fair!
But God made me what He made me. He created me an Indian. He made me tall. He made my hair black. I'm a big muscular guy. I've been to college and I'm a supervisor at work. The supervisor part, I can change that anytime I want. I can even change my hair color (I've tried it in the past). But I can't change my height. I can't change my skin color. I can't change the fact that I'm Indian.
Over the years, I learned that being Indian isn't a curse. It's a blessing! Indians can do anything else that other people can do, I'm living proof of that.
I suspect that over a period of time, you're going to realize that what God has made you isn't a curse either. You're going to see that you're able to do things that other "normal" people are able to do.
Heck, judging by how you're able to express yourself so beautifully...my friend, you're already there!
God bless you.