walkwithjesus08

I am struggling with frustration today. I talked to my husband last night (very calmly I might add) about some changes we need to make in our marriage. He just said, "I don't know what you want me to do about it!" and "I am so tired of hearing this over and over!" This is the same pattern we have been following for years. I am a very vocal person with my husband. I don't mean that I am a "nagging" wife because I very much respect the biblical standpoint on the wife being "submissive" and letting the husband be the head of the household. I just mean that when I feel that me and him are slipping in any area of our marriage or don't see "eye to eye" whether it be a marital subject or parenting subject then I like to discuss it and resolve it. He is not that way. He likes to hold things in for a long time and then he just explodes which ultimately causes a lot of strife in the marriage. To paint a clearer picture of our relationship I must say that we are always home everynight together as a family (I honeslty mean everynight except if he works late). We eat supper together, etc. My husband is a "homebody" which is fine some of the time. I am always wanting to go make memories with him and the kids, but he likes to stay at home all of the time and watch TV. I would love to go on a picnic, simple free things that God gave us to enjoy. I can honestly say that other than me and the kids playing outside or working we have stayed within the confines of our home 75% of the time. It has been this way for many years. The other main problem is that we do not communicate well. I like to hear his thoughts on things, but he just says "You can handle it" and "you do a good job,etc". As much as I am glad that he trusts me handling things I want him to step into his role as the leader of our household in all areas. I need that and I feel that he does too. These are where our problems lie and that ultimately leads to lack of intimacy. We have been to counseling several times over the past year with our pastor who is exceptional in the area of a "Christian marriage" but still we battle. I know I have just got to keep looking up to the Lord and trust that he will handle all of these issues if we just put it in his hands. I am just having a down day because of the emotional toll it is taking on me. I just don't want to be the only person in the marriage giving any effort to fix it. It becomes exhausting on my spirit too. Please throw some extra prayers up for me today.