Charlie68

I posted a couple of months ago about problems in my marriage(thread titled "newbie to site needs prayers and advice"). I have been out of pocket from this site since, but things have become worse. The first week of August, my wife pushed for separation and said I either needed to find a place, or she and the kids would. Not wanting my kids to be uprooted from their home, I reluctantly told her I would. I was blessed to find a place to stay for free. I am watching someone's house and pets until it sells. Anyway, she immediately started seeing this other man. She said the separation was to try to help our marriage, but I'm sure it was to get him to stop running from her. She views separation much differently than myself, our friends and her mother and father. She doesn't see having sex with him as adultery because of it. Also, this is her separation, not mine. I never agreed to it, but was basically forced into it. As you can imagine, I am fighting strong emotions....resentment, anger, grief, loss, depression.....etc. The Lord does give me strength each day to get me through it though. I ask for prayers to make wise decisions and to do what is right. So far, I think I have done that with the help of friends. I have talked to a lawyer to find out where I stand legally, but I am not yet ready for divorce. I will not do that until she tells me there is no more hope for us. Please keep me and my family in your prayers as it breaks my heart to think of my kids with a split family.........
Thak you and God bless,
Charlie