What if you fake it but never get it?????
Do you realy want or need someone that was attracted to something other than what you realy are as a person.?????
It is better to be alone in truth than accompanied in a lie.
"Unconventional "is it???
By your screen name and some of your other postings it appears that being "unconventional " may be more of an issue for you than lack of confidence.
Acting in or displaying counterdictory or unusual life styles causes people to be causous around you. Being shuned and avoided is not a confidence builder.
You might want to try being more "conventional" and see if that doesn't do something for your confidence and loneliness.
Sincerely His
Cliff