buterflieblue

I am a strong Christian woman and have known the Lord since I was only 5 years old. I met my husband over 6 years ago and we fell in love after only 2 weeks of dating. My husband had been a Christian for 10 years, but, like myself, had back slidden. He was known as a "player" for years, but I never believed that he would cheat on me, and he didn't in the beginning. As we dated, we always said that our foundation was on God - and over time, we did change our lives, however not enough. We belived in God, we stopped drinking and partying, we liked to talk about God, but we didn't change our hearts to really truly live for Him the way we should have.

Anyways, we had an amazing relationship. After 3 1/2 years of dating, we were married. We were commited to making God the center of our life and our marriage.

My husband and I have always had an amazing relationship. We are best friends and very active together. We snowboard together, dirtbike, travel, snowmobile, etc... but we also enjoy down time too. Last August, after trying to get pregnant for 6 months, we finally had a positive test! We were both so excited. However, because we live in a resort town and neither of us had an actual career, he decided to go to massage school 4 hours away. I stayed living in our resort town, because I was paid well and had insurance that covered both of us. School was 8 months long. My husband drove out to see me every weekend unless there was a snowstorm.

Our beautiful baby boy was born 6 weeks ago. The happiest time of my life.

However, 3 days ago, he sat me down to tell me something. We have 2 very close friends who are devout Christians, who were there for support. My husband told me that he has been basically living a double life. He had been cheating (having sex) on me with about 5 differnt girls since he had been away in school, throughout my entire pregnancy. The last girl became pregnant and is due in about 7 months. She is only 21 years old (we are 30). She is from a messed up home, has tatoos all over her body, she drinks and does some drugs (which she did while pregnant, but didn't know). This is the only girl my husband actually started having feelings for (completely opposite me). I was completely devistated.

After talking, I know that adultery is the only grounds for divorce in the Bible. However, I know that God put my husband in my life for a reason - I never felt like I had done the wrong thing in marrying him. I told him I forgave him (that's what Jesus would do), but that things obviously have to change. He got down on his knees and said the sinner's prayer - and we are making huge changes - I mean, we are reading our Bibles together and praying, we are going to start seeing the pastor of our church for counseling, we are not going to watch any tv, listen to non-christian music, he is not allowed any female friends, he's erasing any female #s from his phone, etc... It's crazy. But I know we can only go up. I've always felt that God has huge plans for him. If he continues changing his life, God will use him and will make this miracle happen. I am a firm beliver that God can do anything, as long as we make him top priority in our lives.

As for the other baby, we will figure out what to do. The girl wanted to keep the baby, hoping that she could also have my husband. My husband has not chosen that life. She now is talking about aborting the baby. We do not belive in abortion and would take full custody of the child and raise it as our own, but the girl won't return any phone calls. We are worried she may have already committed another great sin.

I suppose I am writting here, not so much for advice, but for support from other Christians who don't know me. I come from a solid Christian home. This is the most messsed up thing that I've ever heard of. This baby and mine will only be 7 months apart. I do trust God to change my husbands heart. Thank you for taking time to read this and reply.