Jeremy

I can't go on with the sleepless nights and the pains from anxiety. I have to know if I commited an unforgivable sin. I have sought forgiveness so much and I truely want to live for Jesus and I want to be with Him in the afterlife. But I feel so lost and that there's nothing I can do because I might have commited an unforgivable sin. I've said and done horrible things against God, and I know what I've done is wrong. But I'm so sorry for them and I want to be with my Savior, Jesus. Even my preacher doesn't help me. It's gotten so bad my grandmother is thinking about having me commited. Someone has to show me the knowledge I need. I'm terrified. I love Jesus and I want to place Him first in my life. I'm just scared that I'm too late.

I just hope I'm not beyond grace

Someone please give me guidance, I'm so scared. I'm terrified about my soul.