Hey, Robin, I have to agree with BM about the generational curses. I had a lot of them, and God brought them to my attention. But I think only to help me understand why I thought the way I did and to be aware of the traps I could fall into with my eyes shut. I'm sure I fell for what the Mormon's shared with me because of my Eastern Star/Mason background. But, I didn't know that until I surrendered my life to Christ.
Lots of people told me about generations curses and I even took all my Mormon, new age, Eastern Star, Yoga stuff, and Mason stuff, including a Mason Bible to my pastor to burn because of that. But, you know what? I have put off having a burning ceremony just because I was busy changng jobs and all, and because I have devoted a lot of time on my knees and reading His word, and just basically getting to know Heavenly Father better, this generational stuff has not bothered me at all. I just realized that after what BM said. In fact, it was going to be a big thing at church, some saints were going to counsel me, give me books to read, prayers to say, etc., but I lost interest because I realized it was a lot of "hoopla" for nothing. I lost all interest in it and they have noticed my growth also. So it has not been persued. It was something I would have been conscentrating on instead of just simply putting Jesus first and foremost in my life by making time for Him.
I would suggest you don't spend too long wasting your time on this because time is at a premium in your life right now. Doncha' think?
I'll tell you one thing God has been doing for me, though, and it's showing me my childhood in my dreams. Bringing back memories while I sleep that help me figure out why I am so needy in the love area, and other things I need to work on and ask forgiveness for. I think he takes each of us individually, according to our needs, and works on us in just the right way.
Of course I have a unique history in that I have no memories before age of 5, almost 6 because my twin sister died then and I even have blanks in my memory bank that I have no idea what was going on at that time. Like 3rd grade, which I failed. Never could figure out why and no one in my family knew either. They just thought I was a little brat and a meanie. I would blow my tonette in the kids' ear and was generally a bully. Well, someone told me I was just acting out because I was very angry that my sister died. Thank you, Jesus, for opening that up to me. I'm asking God to let me see Barbie's face, which is a blank to me right now. I have to look at a pic to remember how she looked. And, I believe He could give me a dream in my sleep about meeting Barbie, if and when He knows I'm ready.
I also had a really realistic dream about when we lived in Ohio for 3 yrs. while my Dad was learning to be a carpenter. Mom had taken in a reformed drug addict when I was about 13 and I remembered him and all that occurred in my life at that time in this dream. I remembered even his name. He was so sweet to me and I remember sitting on his lap all the time and him taking me with his friends on hay wagon rides and fun stuff. He was 30 at the time. Mom told me if I were older, I could marry him! I thought that was great. Anyway, for some reason, she made him sleep in my bed because it was the biggest bed we had and I remember how I loved him because he held me paid attention to me like I never had with my daddy. My daddy acted like I wasn't even there and I needed him to recognize and accept me. Well, this bro certainly did. I knew he would never hurt me and I trusted him. I'd do anything to get the love he gave me. It made a huge impression on me that he was there for me. I cried when he left after 3 mos. and begged him to stay. Now I know this was the reason I was "easy" in high school and
had such a weakness in this area of my life.
I believe God can show you things in your past that you never faced, even generational things that you never knew, but I agree with BM and do not believe you are cursed anymore than a demon can enter your mind because you are indwelt by the Holy Spirit. Pray about it, and forgive me for sharing more than most of you needed to know. Once I start, I just can't stop!
I think we are both growing leaps and bounds, Robin, and learning as we go. But, I would think twice about going backwards and delving into the generational curse thing. Hugz, Bonnie