Originally Posted by SweetSurrender

BlanketGirl, I just read your post tonight and I wanted to just say one thing. Not that you don't need some serious medical or psychological attention, but can you just do something for me if you have not already done it?

Can you just take an hour out of your day, or more if you can, to get on your knees beside a chair or your bed and pour your heart out to the Lord? Surrender everything to Him. Stay there for awhile and soak in His Unfailing Love and acceptance. Listen for His still small voice and speak worshipful words of love back to Him. I don't know if you have actually realized just how much Heavenly Father loves you yet, but when that realization dawns on you, you will be forever changed, as His Love will cover you and shield you from any empty feelings you might have. I know because I have experienced that. I could never do anything right in my own eyes, and my opinion of myself was not one that I expected God to ever love me the way people told me He did. I simply didn't believe it, because I knew the things I had done and I knew I was not worthy.

However, that didn't seem to matter to Jesus. He kept right on loving me until I humbly began to accept it and then is when I realized I didn't miss certain things in my life that I thought were always going to be a part of me. The "me" I thought I was, began to disappear and I became new in Him. I wish that for you, Honey. God wishes that for you. You just need to accept that for you and let Him cover you with his forever-abiding Love. There will be life changes, I promise you. Just keep getting on your knees and commune with Him. Every Day. Love, Sweets