bmc196

WAS LOST...Hi.. I haven't really read this thread in its entirety.. what i have read, I get the feeling you are a truthseeker.. I think we all are, as we are created in the image of GOD, but some appear more so than others...I do not accept GOD has forsaken you, irrespective of you feeling barren or empty.. It is horrible to feel this way, disconnected and wondering if perhaps your involvement with that CHurch and what it stood for, may of brought this about. and is it permanent. FEAR. You care, WHY..YOUR concerned about this I feel... WHY... Perhaps GOD wants you to trust even in spite of feeling barren, lost, unsaved, unwanted, unforgiven and doomed..To trust God in spite of this....Perhaps your involvement, of you know what, has played this out,,, and now Christ is indeed testing you with this trust.. You were playing around with all these things Christ didn't stand for,,, and now perhaps he is asking you to trust him in spite of the possible rammifications of such an involvement..I think Christ may be wanting you to trust him.. Trust that if your honest with your confessin of sin... honest that this is not just a play thing.. a sunday thing etc then you are indeed saved and you do not have to do a thing. SIT walk STAND, by watchmen nee. talks about a fella who'se wife ran of with his best friend when he had to be away from her for 6 months.. He couldn't forgive and couldn't let go of it .... and the advice was ......do nothing,,for it has already been dealt with..Case closed. I get the feeling with you that this is similar,, you dont have to do a thing.. IT has been dealt with...Washed clean.. and when your reminded of feeling empty and barren, unforgiven and dammed. that all you have got to do, is trust that all has been dealt with. ONCE and then when your reminded of doubt realise that the victory has been won.. ARE you willing to live for Christ. THIS is what I believe is being asked of the Christian. If you are, then facing feeling barren and cut of from god is okay..IT is a lie of the enemy.. WHO do you believe..

Sorry to be so full on, but I just felt led and I hope the words I have used hit home if they are meant too..I have been through something similar and I want to feel that it is okay being honest and perhaps risk appearing-who do you think you are..THe enemy will perhaps want me to feel this.. Not speak from the heart. but I'd risk this if it meant that the use of a word may indeed be of value to a someone else. I also realise I am a NEW CHRISTIAN and sometimes passion can outweigh sensible use of the words. Obviously there is a time to speak out and a time to not.