WasLost
There's this door that has Jesus behind it. It's always right in front of you and just an arms reach away. What happens is many many things come in and make that doorway seem further. It's like the hallway is stretched out in your perception, so it seams senseless to raise your hand to what you can't reach. This distance is just an illusion, and no doubt, having been a satanist, the devil may have some strongholds in your life. Not just because of that, but other things. Spending time studying the bible, seeking God - especially His love, forgiveness and power, and asking Him for His Holy Spirit to guide you, will help reduce that Hallway-stretching effect in time. Yield to change and try to humble yourself to have a mind like that of Christ. Love is the way. The world is lost in sin and blind - don't listen to it.
