This was weird. Soon after I posted this I fell in weird doubts. I found myself thinking that my salvation is insecure, that I have not really decided for Jesus and so on, which is all untrue, I was just weakened by an illness I have, schizophrenia. But I never had such doubts before. I feared all the time that I would do something stupid. There were weird thoughts forming in my head. It was strange and ugly.
Today I overcame it when I went on beautiful drive and restaurant visit with my parents in the sun of may. I remembered that I must always decide for the good over the evil, and that I have to resist evil, which is pleasing to God and a call to maturity.
I realized that my fears are ugly things, and that I better get over them quickly.
I don't think though that I should respect the devil. Jesus certainly didn't respect him. For some reason God keeps the devil around, but I guess if we continue to follow God, and simply resist the enemy without assailing him in some childish endeavour, we are ok.
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