My testimony is not very long.
I was raised in church till about the 4th grade. then b/c of issues within the church along with loosing the pastor. the church split and my parents just... gave up on church.. from that point on i was in a house of parents drinking.. smoking and constantly argueing... i did not have a good example of a family to go by.. along with this i was picked on at school.. ALOT. and no one would accept me.. from 5th grade all the way to 8th grade i struggled for acceptance.. i would do whatever i could do to be accepted. but it never worked.. during those years i turned to drugs and alcahol. it seems the only ppl who would at least give me "conditional acceptance" were the pot heads of the school. after that the combination of rejection, beeing poor, and struggeling to fit in led to severe depression.. i felt SO alone. and like no one cared.. i even contemplated suicide a few times.. but then at the end of 8th grade we got a phone call. My old church had finally gotten a new preacher. so we start going back to church.. in the 2 months of summer i was going to church sunday morning, night and wednesday night. just b/c i was being dragged there by my family.. but.. i couldnt help noticing things in the Bible studies we were doing and the sermons my new pastor preached.. i learned that Jesus loved me and Jesus cared for me. and that He loved me SO much that He died for me... well that made me feel good but i didnt accept Him.. then one day our preacher preached on Hell, and the concequince of rejecting God. and i realized that i was lost.. i wanted Jesus in my life.. to Love me like i had learned about.. i was so glad that He would accept me for who i was.. that summer i accepted Jesus into my life.. it took about a year for me to quit all the drugs and extreemly bad habits i had formed.. i no longer needed them b/c i didnt need to fit in. all i needed was Jesus. over my 9th grade year i leaned more and more on Jesus for what i needed in life. and he continued to bless me.. he gave me great Christian friends.. and even better. he Saved one of my old Friends and now that friend is my #1 person to discuss God and study the Bible with.. i Have an Eternal Joy in my heart now that no one can take away. and its all b/c of Jesus.
I am graduating this year.. and.. and honestly... if i had not been saved... i Know that i would not have made it this far in life...
Praise God for His great Love and Mercy!
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